Hey guys...... Visitors, please i sign my guestbook. I beg u. this is so i can check ur url. The Nedstats thingy says i have visitors frm malaysia, egypt and all. I want to befren u pple so please do sign my guestbook.

Why nobody ask me why i choosed Si Dalang Istana Wayang as my nick? Well if someone were to ask, it is because i felt lonely in the sense that Dalang is the puppeter of wayang kulit. There is only one Dalang in every Wayang. The istana [palace] is just a addition stating my very "lucky" position having a family having a shelter. However i m unhappy, this is because i am the lonely dalang puppetering a play which is a lie and a depiction of how i actually want my life to be. The Wayang Kulit itself is strange, using the silhoutte of the puppet rather than the puppet itself. The only wayang kulit i remember watching is this advertisement on an cough syrup last time. The dalang does not have any communication with the audience and only some with the gamelan crew at his side.


Jamie Oliver Happy Days was so great. It was so entertaining. His a good chef and entertainer. Dier funny lah but there were some lame moments are. Watching Chef Wan now. Dier giler lah! Pakai a balinese outfit. Merepek!

Argh! Forever Summer with Nigella dah takde!!!!

Why did Media corp cancel it? argh....now my afternoons would be unfilled with cooking delights for ze beutiful miss Nigella. Jamie Oliver is taking her place so its not that bad ah. Masih boleh imagine myself cooking Master Gourmet pieces.

I m currently feeling very lonely but its nothing new. After i watch Prince Williams at 21 in Lombok, I felt the urge to just get to noe some famous person. Why? Because they are constantly betrayed by people even their own relatives [like Prince Williams] Therefore maybe if i could have communication with them then maybe i can get advice. Its a big dream but nothing is impossible. I m gonna try Nelly Furtado, and Prince Williams [hahahhaha].

Bersdendirian di pentas wayang
Si Dalang Istana Wayang

Hey!. Tired and lonely.

WEnt to Lombok. Wasnt Much fun. I expected it to be like shoppers' heaven. But....No. Got my hands on only two serulings and 20 pieces of tanjak indonesian style [for my dikir team or i'll just rent it to people] Really tireed! Argh!. Read this slowly coz i m typing it very slowly. Penat lah! dont noe what to say anymore...............


To K3G I think i noe u. But i do not wish to make anymore asumptions. This is all about a shared website rite? Hahaha go to hell. Like Kakak Kizzie said, Get urself a life.

To My "brother" [not u hakeem] I change my mind. Its over. I want to end everything now. Dont ask me why.....i dont wanna answer. I feel it is better that i be unreasonable. I made up my mind. Nothing can change my decision. Goodbye.

I need someone's help. I donno who. I just cant trust anymore. Its hard. WHERE ARE U MY SAVIOR?????!!!

hatiku sudah pecah bederai berjuta jutaan.
Si Dalang Istana Wayang

Argh! I dont wanna go!

Irritating lah that i cannot back out from the lombok trip. Nenek Connie is here. And she is gonna be here for the next ten days! Argh! This means my toilet is gonna be used by at least three other people. NO use ader four toilets, mother and father satu, Mr selfish bass player satu and nenek satu [my sister would share with her but nenek like hogs the toilet. Back to the lombok issue. I really dont wanna go! Is there anyway i dont have to go and still get a refund dari SilkAir. Mother is now constantly being supplied with whining by me that i dont wanna go. Argh!!!! I'll be missing so much in Singapura. Bingit Lah! I m morer frustrated that we couldnt go yesterday and go back on Sunday. Bingit!

Hey.

If the serve was not down yesterday, i would have already told u guys that the Lombok trip was cancelled. I was in Mixed feelings. In the morning i was already whining to my mom that i didnt want to go coz i got a headache and i was not ready to leave the house [i have this home sick problem] True enough the trip had to be postponed as mine and hakeem's passport's expiry date was less than 6 months. Merepek lah! When i reached there i was already psyched nak pergi. Well mulutku masin.
Anyone wants to take my place? I still wanna go Indonesia [Dah lama mimpi nak pergi] But i will miss dikir practices for the coming competition and this orang kahwin show [my only possible moment of playing the Seruling to the public] . thats why i m in a dilemma. Anyway mom says i cannot change the tickets or something like that. And i always have this problem with travelling with my parents. Very naggy suddenly. Jgn ni lah, jgn tu lah. In front of orang ramai lagi. And everynody nak setep genius trying to figure something out when i m there hating it just watching them fight over it. [did that make sense?] Anyway i repeat. i loathe goin anywhere with my family. I feel very uncomfortable. Obviously Haniz has atasi the problem by not goin anywhere. So i have to find a new way to not go with my family.

What am I gonna do????? Every shedule thrown out of course! Argh.
Si Dalang Muda Istana Wayang
Irfan

Hey there.

Yesterday [Friday] I went to Haig Road, after bout three weeks of no dikir, to dikir. It was so de-stressing! I m so free from tensions now. Execpt the one I may have with my parents for coming home at 1150. What happened u asked? Well I stayed to chat with them at the kedai kopi. [usually I would just go home after that] but hey I thought, why not? So I did totally oblivious of the time. I had a 7up only. Perut sakit after that. Anyway, the most exciting happened. I was given the option by Abg Dapi whethe to join the Tumpat all budak baru squad or masuk with the Tumpat “oldies” combine forces with Anak Watang. Dapi also said that only I was give the choice. My god, at that moment, degupan jantung kuat seperti memecah rangka dadaku. Wow am I that good? Seriously. By the way we are goin to participate in Planet Dikir, Simei CC 20 July. So after my 7up, I made my decision. I m following dapi and joining forces dengan Anak Watang [division: ten from Tumpat, ten from Anak Watang]. My decision was based on how much fun I would have.

During the time I was sipping my 7up, I ws sitting dengan the three of the “oldies”. They are fun lah. [ah pai, rafiq and bapak] they made this Bruce almighty joke tak habis habis. Mee kuah nyer kuah terbelah lah. Supposedly at that time rafiq was the “almighty” one. Pai was like kalau engkau god aku setan. Engkau bismillah aku bismisetan. Merepek lah. I felt bad ah they were playing with the idea of god, though I had a good laugh.

Oh ya before that I went to visit kedai abang Farzeel. I saw Kak Leen’s ex there. Why? Anyway I visited coz dah lamer tak pergi situ. Then went straight to Geylang Serai C.C.
I was so happy when Ubay who was sitting next to me reached out for my seruling which was sticking out. I got to play it ah but only to the unimportant part of the team. [hahaha, well dorang takde power.] I played shakily. I was so scared. Dapat main two songs only. Takbir and this melayu one. Kamal was goin all sudin shouting “Ramlee! Sampan dah sampai!” Merepek lah. Shall this bring me anywhere? Well we will see

Then during practice, a retired dikir man came to evaluate us. Namer dier abang Lai.Dier married to a wanita berdikir. How sweet [wish it could happen to me]. Anak dorang bising lah, berlari sini sana. Dorang I think kahwin lambat pasal anak masih muda tapi bapak dah tua. Zuraidi was the leader at that time coz dapi belum sampai, kesian pasal he had to teach a group distracted by the two child’s screams while they run around catching each other. We were practicing lagu untuk a show orang kahwin. Next week. Do I want to go? Hahaha decisions decisions.

Goin lombok tomorrow, belum lagi pack. Be back on thursday.So I got to go…

Too excited with dikir.
Hulubalang Irfan

Argh!! dah dua kali my post ter delete. Allah must not want me to publish my post!!! dah ar fed up.

K i'll make it fast.
Wednesday i went to punggol cc with my fren Hidayah and Raihana. We didn’t study much, duh! In the morning I went to pick raihana’s radio coz I need it to transfer song from my cds to tape coz I only got a walkman
Thursday I went to blaja again but Nadia O was also ther. We studied at a void deck of a blok beside the road from simei to tampy near the expressway.

Guess who I saw there….. abang eddie. He lives around there. I thought he looked familiar side view [front view dah berbags of fats] he was pushing this little boy on the tricycle with the handle thing. That’s why I could recognise him until his wife kat blakang was guiding their anak on a fourwheel bicycle. Scary. Tak tegur pun, sombong. Must be because I he hasn’t seen me for 5 years. Anyways I still wonder why he is avoiding our family. Anyways sedara sedara tersayang ku, jgn lah ikut jalan seperti si abang eddie, jagn sombong when u guys get married. Hahaha……… that’s all After that I fell and sprained my wrist. Sakit! And I am supposed to be going dikir today hahaha kelakar lah

ReMiXeD!!
I m gonna do a song review! yay!

Songs that are in my mind now:
-Black-eyed peas - Where is the love
-50 cent - 21 questions & Majic stick
-Busta rhymes - [i forgot the lagu name] i think it is I know what u want.

Black-eyed peas.
Meaning ful songs. Lagu semua bermakna. I loved them whe they did Request line with Macy Gray. I think i m goin to a fan of theirs. Goin to buy Cd dorang. The song is Great! but Justin Timberlake? ..... Dorang [kacang mata hitam] funky lah!

50 cent
The beat sedap lah! the guitar. Very nice! Didnt quite like his In da club. maybe because it is already too famous. Oh with the birthdays. Nice one also with lil' Kim. Dier [lima puluh sen] funky lah!

Busta rhyme
Sedap lah the way they say "baby if u give it to me, i'll give it to u, i know what u want, u know i got it" Great song! Rhyme [Tembak-a-Rima] funky lah!

Hey hey hey.......
I getting a bad cough now. It does seem like it wants to go away [dah picit inhaler tu macam limajutalimaratuslimapuluhlima times, tak berguna] i like pronoucing "Lima"
Mom and co. went rumah cik tipah today. I HAPPENED to wake up when they were leaving. Thats normal. Mom does wake me up, does ask me if i want to go....Hai. Too late so i didnt go. After that i though of goin but Mother claimed they were goin home already[that was at 7pm] so i didnt go. She then only bought for me my food [nasi pataya] Irritating lah she this past few days. Goin thru my stuff and throwing stuff that i still need. She threw all my sec three notes lah forgeting that i have to study for it. Tah ah i m really angry about that now. Total intrusion of privacy. oh ya i went to movie on that day, what luck. Dah Lah!


Just told her off jus now [not in a rude tone ah]. Dah i told her i was goin to check again. i came back today the bag dengan what to my mom's eye were rubbish takde. Sudah di buang. Exterminated. AARRRGGGGHHHHH!! Need to dikir!!! oh ya i maybe be taking part in Planet Dikir 2003. I was invited lah. Well the good thing it is at Simei. The bad thing... bulan 7. During my supposedly intensive study thing. Well but it will be helpful i think.

I stopped meeting someone often already. Dah not feeling close to dier any more. Dont feel special any more. Sakit hati, seperti batu dihempas kaca. Terhampa hanyut terapung.....Why tell me why..... I understand why but i just dont noe where i stand. I guess u have gotten use to this air of distrust around u. I miss being with u. Where art thou?

Where can i find a disc player ah? [untuk di pinjam]
Hulubalang sedih......
Irfan

Hey yeh ehy eyh!!!!!

Jus had my exam today. How was it? Like every other malay paper i sat for. I dont think i will score...and the possibilities of me passing is like very small. Sigh. What happened today....
I watched How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days. the plan was for us to watch Finding Nemo tetapi....it was full house. Anyways the movie i watched with Raihana, Hidayah and Nadia was quite good ah. Very interesting. But the ending could have been more exciting. A bit like my malay paper 1. Tak sempat complete the story. The first few paragraphs were laced with frasa berbunga, peribahasa and all but it became rushy rushy. Well........

I did foolish stuff this past few days. I like wasted my time naik bus 28 went to paya lebar then went home. i didnt do much there tau. Then i went to get comics to futher enhance my time wasting process. [my favourites are, sherman's lagoon, Garfield, Farside gallery(BEST!)] Well.......

Now i got a sore throat, ingus [is tat how u spell it?] melelih, rambut teratai[is tat even the word to use?]

Hulubalang Irfan

Goin to Lombok this Sunday. Yay! Indonesia at last.

Hello guys....
Lawar tak the new change i made? Blue is my fave colour lah.

Anyways. Family dah make plans to travel to Pulau Lombok somewhere next week. I wasnt exicted at first but man i m now. Indonesia lah! on a Silkair plane!! So happy. I am gonna buy so much stuff there, my mom would need tax reliefs for the trip. Satu hela kain batik [i will figure what to do with it when i come back(probably stitched onto one of my bags)], tradisional instruments [one whole gamelan set, and indonesiac stuff lah! Enjoy my self in the beaches. Maybe go scuba diving. Collect seashells. Breathe ocean udara. Get ze tension out!!!! I just hope family crap wont get in the way and spoil everything.....eg. Fathers nagging depan org-org indonesia. Hope there is no catastrophies like theft or anything serious. The getaway may disrupt me from my studying mood. But taking a plane is tooo good to miss. Wish i could go with my loved ones [implying something] [i love my parents..but in a different way]

Hidup dikandung adat, mati di kandung tanah....
-Waktu hidup mestilah mangikut peraturan, adat dan undang undang termasuk hukum Tuhan, setelah mati terserahlah kepada Tuhan Makes me think.......

Hey there. Didnt go school today. Freaking tired of it. Malay remidials, prelim oral exam and art W.A.R - Working late the Art Room. watever............. Anyways... sdfkn v M Vlkm j iub vf uih zfkxn iuhnzkxhvn hs onxnh nvn jvnh n kneihnv9 ;'dij vno;xhbh bkcnb nboxhbiolhidvginv cvi xcinhv xzkc x ivizxnjc icvoijh roigiaehr rihr oid hrg dgidhf i'hf fih dfi gpfidh dfih gfih dfi hdf hgifp gfdihg fj

irfan

Hey there….
Sudah lama tak blog. Well to start I couldn’t log in. ANYWAYZZzz…….

The time I found out I couldn’t log in, I went blog surfing. The m,ost interesting one was “Myheartspeaks”. The blog entry talked about how man creates things which may be harmful to him as a consequence in the future. We have seen the ozone issue dengan the CFC man created, Siapa yang suffer? Kite juga. Inilah menyebabkan dunia panas berbahang. [sorry for the malay-ness, preparing for my O’level malay exam on 9th June : p] DDT…. A nonbiodegradeble insecticide which pollutes water bodies and endangers marine life etc.. This reminds me of a poem I read before during literature. Bout how god created the earth in seven day and how man will destroy it in seven days jugak. Can I do something bout it? Would man wake up to the fact? What is man doing bout it? Sigh. Ironically I am watching futurama. At least I parts of it. Anyway it is depicting the world in worst state possible[this is when fry went deeper into the future….i ntwo days

“Tengok lah dunia, ibu membuang anaknya yang masih dalam kandungannya, orang-orang yang mendasarkan iman mereka ke sains, ingin membuat diri meraka kekal berzaman, lelaki dengan lelaki, wanita degan wanita- bukankah allah membuat
adam dan hawa? bukan adam dan ali atau hawa dan siti. Buat lah sesuatu anak anak ku" Said my Ustaz.

I love goin madrasah. Maybe just to gain wisdom and make something out of it. I hate waking up Sunday mornings and wear a blue-white madrasah uniform. Its new by the way. For menegah a new batch. Button punyelah bercermin....hai.

Gotta ask a question. Kakak ya... do you write drafts before u blog? Seamless lah ur entries. And ur use of language...superb. i would have to learn from u.

Someone asked me why i "sanggup berdikir" though its a just a phase. I feel for dikir. Dikir is like a very huge sigh to me. The "syncronised shouting" relieves all my stress. I become very relaxed when i do shout it out of my system. Its some what an aspirin for me because i am tolerant. Kalau tidak....aku dah tumbuk orang instead of breathing in and out and looking away. In arts sense jugak it calms my mind. The songs, the beats, the tepuk...... I got fren who tindik coz they are stressd, scar themselves dengan run their arms with sharp objects. diorang tu tak sayang diri. So does this answer ur question? [its a rhetorical question u dont have to answer it] I got big dreams for the malay society. BIG, big dreams. and this is where i start.

alrite go to go ubah stuf rite now see u next time.