this was during the practice on the same day. [feeling main gong!]
cant believe i never told anyone.]
Haha!

Anyways. got back my prelim results.
Macam taik.
L1R5 -25
L1R4 -18
I still dont noe where i want to go.
Jc or poly?
I so dont wanna go to poly and rush my way to work.
I really want to go JC tetapi my malay!
Kalau boleh masuk Jc tanpa membuang masa dengan bahasa ibunda then can ah.
I suck in malay!
Poly is so matly and minahlay.
Wait..... thats Ite.
Poly is so.....wild and tak teratur.
I really need help with my planning.
Tak tau apa nak jadi.
Maybe because i go with the flow.
Tambahan i just realised i do not have a dream to be anything.
To me anything that i may possibly be good at is good enough.[ eg dikir. tapi itu bukan kerja. just an example]
Possible interesting careers.....
Biochem related stuff u noe like CSI and whatever,
a photographer- i reliase i have the flare in framing objects and etc. [tapi most probably be a pastime thing]
or a Teacher. [eeeee]
Aku dah tak tau!!!!!!!!!
Berikan ku petunjuk lah allah yang maha menguasa!!!

"Bahtera terapung, Ombak berketipul,
Degupan Jantung, Rancak berke cimpung,
Bonda yang ku sanjung,
Ayah yang ku agung,
Dengarkan lah, batin ini meraung" -- Hikayat Putera Emas Mega perdana 1997.
Sedap gila!

Ibunda,
Semenjak bergelar janin,
Sebesar zarah,
Gerak di dalam solat mu, ku turut bersama....
Juara dia, fuhh, power!

Tadi i actually saw how my artwork was going to be like.
Lawa ah.
Tetapi, i still have to do stuff.
Walaupun penat, hidup mesti di teruskan.

Pahlawan Putih

Sudah lama tidak update.
Dont think i will be sooner.
Dah tak ada the password so i cant log in suka hati aku.
Well its good to a certain extent that i wont be distracted.

Long day just now.
Went for night RSL[responsible self learning.]
Did quite a lot of work.
Yup.
touched first time on my maths paper 2.
Thinking of not goin to school tomorrow.
Ada chem test.
Tapi kena pergi ah kerana hidden agenda.

It gets weird when people start to look at you more.
More individuals look, even stare at me.
Is it cause by the jap hairstyle?
or am i just being egoistic.
hahahahaha.
But is true, more look at me.
Dah penat ah.
Nak tidur ni.

Pahlawan Putih

Today......
Rambut ala japp.
makaned alot.
The aik hua foodcourt dah renovated and has new and cheap foods.
You should try the mee rebus.
Heavenly giler!
Across the walkway, ada small section of a bakery yang jual epok epok and such.
SEDAP!!!!
Roti boyan dier, epok epok sayur, sedap.
All this at Tampines mart ah.

I stayed at school after maths and art.
Hanged with Fandi outside the general office.
He was waiting for his "fren" Zuriana to finish her malay camp. [for sec 3s][Ria Riang. or something like that.]
Temankan sambil belajar Social studies.
I also wanted to lihat wajah di dia.
Nampak sekejap aja.

Gaya mu sungguh menawan,
bilakahlah akan kami berkawan?

kesian Fandi, dah tunggu lepas tu Zuriana bailk dengan kawan.
Haha. dier dah terlena kat meja tu sekejap.
However he has every bit of my respect.
He is so successful in my opinion.
Fandi got an award in the ncc [some rare award]
He took part in silat competitions and made to the finals.
Dier pun one of the Committe members in the prefectorial circle.
Sembahyang pun tak dilupakan.
he is always in the group that goes to masjid on fridays.
Contoh remaja Melayu yang berjaya i feel.
Zuriana his girlfriend pun sama seperti dia.
Head of Malay Cultural troupe, prefect [tak salah committe member jugak]
In silat too.
Bagai pinang dibelah dua.
Both hold many responsiblities.
Salute them.
Insha allah dorang dapat anak yang semacam dengan dorang supaya mengharumkan nama masyarakat melayu masa depan.

Feeling very people lately. [as in analysing people's traits and etc.]
Well, untuk buat contoh.
Supaya hidup berdikari.hehehe.

CIS! dah ah!
Pahlawan

Penat betui tolong kawan.
Adi, Senior Tumpat, orang kuat....hehehe.
Nak blog.
Susah sungguh template and everything.
It uses a different format.
Similar to Kakak Ya's.
Hai dah ah...nak tidor.

Apa maknanya Awaabislu?
Berulang kali kau tanya padaku,
Terasa sedih terasa pilu,
Although we are apart, but i still love you!

Mengapa? Kenapa?
Tertikam di dada...bergelora.
Seriously.... kenapa aku hanya ke sekolah untuk melihat wajahmu?
Kenapa aku sungguh tertarik dengan gelagat seorang ini?
Kenapa hati ku tidak pernah tenang jika mengetahui kehadiraannya?
Mengapa di juga saling berpaling muka untuk melihat ku?
Allah!
Terpaksa aku berjuang untuk mengenal pasti jawapannya.

Just now i put my Jap hair on.
Style baru.
People say its good, so i think i will continue with it.
Tadi selepas sembahyang jumaat with Zul, Fandi, Fairuz, Putera etc.,
I met Raihana, Hidayah, Nadia and etc at Long John Silver. [Banyak sangat nama]
Ate dengan dorang.
Then as expected when you walk with girls, you go where your feet takes you.
Banyak sangat u-turns and such.
Lepas itu balik rumah and went online.
Helfi just dropped by to pick something up.
Dia tah, kawan yang setia tetapi tak sgt.
Humble, generous...
Rashidah describes him as.....
"helfi eh.....k he's nice..very reliable.very brotherly.though ader jugak dier punye merepek kdg2 yg aku tak leh tahan....but as a whole..he's very Warm."
But some times its irritating when you try to get hold of him.
He is never at home pasal dia menghabiskan masa di masjid.
Which is good ah but not at a time like this [when he is sitting for his os.
oh well.

Pahlawan Putih!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatu.
Salam sejahterah.

Wah seh wah seh!
Pahlawan Putih konon.
Sebenarnyer it was the name of my malay group when i was in primary 5.
Some of the other group were like Pelangi, Kuda Hitam, Cakerawala. [Boleh masih ingat seh!]
I still remember a skit we had to perform bertema pantang larang.
We got the highest mark as we were the most prepared.
Terkenang masa kami berlatih selepas sekolah.
We got 45/50 tak salah.
Also we were the overall champions amongst the groups. [there was a permarkahan taking at that time by Cikgu Zalina]
There was only one girl in our group. [forgot her name]
The rest were guys, Fauzie, Helmi, Amirrudin[i think].
I also had a gelaran then, Toko Peribahasa.
I practically was the walking "teman setia anda".
Sekarang juga ah.
I am most tertarik kepada peribahasa in all of the malay language.
Frasa yang melambangkan sesuatu yang tidak obvious.
I want to learn more! [hehe, tamak-on!]


School's been draggy.
All the periods are grouped up together so we have like 4 periods of chemistry, biology and so on.
Penat, letih selepas itu.
What to do?
besok is going to the worst.
We have Art, bio and even science after school!
Balik mesti terlena tanpa berlengah.
Alrite!
Nak gi masak ayam.
Hope my template is okay to mata korang.
Do comment on it.


Pahlawan Putih

Went for the inter belia groups competition organised by the Fityah Masjid Darul Ghufran.
Masijid Kampong Siglap pihak pembangkang dan Masjid Darul Ghufran as pencadang.
This is how i see it.
We had the points tetapi sukar untuk expresskan. [No i was not involved]
The madrasah sent an all girls team while MDG sent half girls half guys.
Maybe because it was a bahas and not a Debate.
Kalau tak kita dah menang.
Actually we should have won because it really seems that we were more prepared then them in terms of facts and such.
there COULD have been biasedness as one of the pengadil was part of the MDG Fityah! mana boleh Fair?
Nasib baik ada makan.
One of the Nicest ayam goreng i have eaten.
boleh lah.....


ARGH Besok Sekolah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

helo.
Smalam punya lah penat.
Aida's pit was quite okay except that chicken wings do not cook fast.
and it rained. [when is there a pit that i have gone to that has not had rained? macam tak berkat like that.
From 3 to 9.
By 7 hotdogs dah tak ada.
At the end ayam masih ada satu lagi bag [4kg]
How stupid of the guys to use fire starter as their main fuel for the pit.
Orang dah cakap, beli arang. ni takmo dengar.
Degil!
At the end only my six pieces of chicken yang fully masaked.
I wrapped them up in aluminium foil then sumbatkan kat dalam the bara api.
SEDAP!
things got bad when things got bad ah. [tak nak go further]
Hai!
gotta do art.
venthough badan tgh lelah and really penat.
Aching shoulders.
Need a massage.
C'ya
silauan keangkuhan

Helo. dah lama jugak tak berbloging.
I still frequently log in tetapi tak blog. tah kenapa.
Nothing new right now.
Except Sars is back. [wow gitu ah]
Hai! bila lah aku nak betui betui belajar.
Kat bilik dah takda meja. [meja tv ada lah]
Kalau belajar kat dining table mesti ada yang kacaunya.
Nak keluar pun selalu tak sedap hati [nak kena pack benda, plan apa nak buat. by the time dah pack aku tertidur]
Hebo betui.
Lepas tu ada banyak hal. ada pit lah besok, MCT farwell party on friday lah.
Naik angin tau.
I have to find a house i can pinjam with a table blaja nye.
Call it excuses but its the only way i can stop procastination.
Art belum habis lagi, lagi satu beban yang tak nak tinggal hidupku.
APA YANG TAK KENA?
One and 3/4 months left!!
hai.
I guess i noe the answer but i will deny it sampai mati!
Aku ni korang tau degil nak mampui.
HAI sekali lagi!.

Btw my top portion of shades of blue, greys and orange look like they are clashing or combining?
Tak pernah terfikir.
Agak nya kerana aku banyak sangat berfikir pasal benda benda mustahak [EgO shit]
like how sad the maid situation is in Singapore.
Sedih g***b***.
Serious tau.
Pukul mereka sampai mati.
Dorang ni berkerja sahaja.
Doesnt mean orang boleh abuse mereka.
*shakes
ni lah perbuatan orang2 Bongkak Singapura tercinta.
Singapore banyak social problem ah.
Tak leh tertahan.

Ah about the tuition.
I stop because there wasnt a point in it other than waste mak aku nyer duit.
Belajar sendiri lebih mulia.

PEACER!
Silauan keangkuhan [this is where i sign off with my messenger nick]

Today i was supposed to run my NAPFA 2.4km.
Forgot that i had to report to Ms Tweety Teo that morning.
Nasib buruk! my fren who constantly failed, who had to run with me got a pass just like that.
Bingit seh.
Orang lain dier boleh kasi pass. Aku tak boleh.
Besok tengok apa yang boleh jadi.

Sejak kebelakangan ini, saya telah seperti sengaja melambatkan diri.
Sengaja naik bus pukul 6.50am.
Hanya untuk the hidden agenda.
Hai....besok dah tentu tidak boleh.
Besok.............
lets see. aku kena bangun pagi pagi kemudian bergegas ke sekolah.
I got to face gunung berapi during art. [tiga period pulak tu!]
7pm i got tuition @ rumah kawan. [First ever in my life. tak pernah pergi tuition]
Hope i will still be alive for Friday.

My results suck.
Terok lah.

Dah ah.
Silauan keangkuhan............

Not much people online.
I guess dorang semua ada kerja lain.
Aku aja yang takda.
Met an Azri.
He added me to his msn messenger.
Budak Dikir jugak.
Dari Rambong.
Mintak lagu Kesuma.
Kasi lah tak kan tak kasi.....Ikhlas.

I should start studying.

Silauan Keangkuhan.
[nak gian bila ada orang sebut angkuh. tah kenapa]

Dah nak dekat midnight.
Doing art as usual.
She's also online doing her Amaths.
Funny that we are not disturbing each other. [Macam Truce kira kan]
Besok banyak hal, macam mana nak survive?
Nasib baik Ang Zul online.
Dapat tanya timetable.
Dah lama tak sekolah... TERlupa.
I hope i finish soon.
Submission i heard 30th September. [Lagi banyak ni]
Listening to Langkah-Langkah Satria.

Langkah Langkah, Satria Pertama,
Menuju ke medan bayangan dengan ...
Berkorban Kasih dan berkorban jiwa dan raga
Berkorban Segala-galanya dengan kerelaan.............


Hai better get back to shading