"BAGAI TAK SEIMBANG TIADA ADILNYA. DIRI BAGAIKAN DIPERALAT SEMATA! A~A~A~A......"
The verse from Celupar's song in planet dikir.
Sing it all the time. [imagine ah dengan suara besar.hahaha]

THREE More days to My first paper.
[doa kan lah]
Maths paper one.
Hope i dont tertidur or something.
Ya ALLAH!
Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kesenangan.
Tapi kalau dah memang takda kesulitan macam maner nak dapat kesenangan?????
Repeat twice in a surah.
Alam nasyrah I think.
I hope i get through my Os senonohly.

I dunno ah.
Selalu kawan ajak pergi belajar.
End up talking, talking, talking.
HAI.
Gotta learn to say no!
wrapping up.

CANT SAY I DONT MISS YOU TOO!
PAHLAWAN PUTIH

That friday kan.
Did both.
Lagaan and go-out-with-Family-to-get-stuff.
Went to hang around Kedai Abang Farzeel at Tanjong Katong Complex.
[[Singgah lah ke House of Scarfs untuk keperluan Eid kamu]]
that was after Berjumaat at a hidden masjid.[forgot the name] With Abang Farzeel, Uncle bakar and Sahar.[Men in black cept for me lah]
That day itself i forgot it was friday. Haish. dah tua. [tapi mash handsome]
Not chosey so i just picked a Nice blue [colour tak tertentu type] baju raya at 2nd chance city plaza.
Went back to the kedai then feeling arrange barang trying to make myself useful.
Then after that went back.
Nak pergi beli new specs at that time tapi lepas buka Tv baru teringat yang Lagaan was on.
Different from the different nyer hindi movie.
So the kampung like and the sedih sikit ah.
After that went to the Eye room with mother after Isyak.
After lagaan dah dongeng nak get it over with.
Tapi mother nak sembahyang lambat lambat and stuff.
$195. [do i need to say more?]
Half's coming out of my pocket.
Black stainless steel half frame.

Puasa was/ is okay i guess.
Dah got to use to it.
hai.
Lost a pair of seluar sekolah to gravity.
Now I have to go through O'level with only one pair.
I mean this is a disaster!!!
hahaha. [stuck up konon]
Gots to go belaja or something.

Pahlawan putih.

Helo.
Gambar dah developed.
[Handsome as always] - kulit tebal.
Anyway hari ini Deepavali.
Mother suggested we go to the Istana.
Nak pergi jugak, tapi Lagaan is on at 3.30.
Oscar nominated....jangan main main.
Ajaked Rashidah to go with me, but she had to go to her Grandmama's place.
She asked me to taped for her the movie as her Grandmama's takde Channel I.
Kesian. [I m not going to do it for you! haahaaa]
Sekarang mother is thinking of going to Tanjong Katong Complex.
Beli baju untuk hari raya.
Free parking there.
Ala ala ala.
Lagaan or go-out-with-Family-to-get-stuff ?
see what happens.
Note to self: STUDY!

11 more days.
Pahlawan Putih

Vain Nak mampus!
Tak tau malu!
Selalu cari chance tengok cermin!
- I m talking bout myself.

I realise that i get vainer by the moment.
Selalu nak feeling handsome.
Why?
Pasal dah banyak orang suke tengok aku.
Apa nak buat?
Show them what they want to see!
hahaha.
Kulit Tebal.

Trying to develop my graduation photos.
From Last friday but there was still a few more shots left.
Took some during the chalet, then some more stupid ones just to finish up the film.
I took muka Ilhan, my baby cousin.
Naik syoik dier, senyum punya lah lebar.
Then ada gambar of me making the class speech.
Dah nampak the pics my fren took.
Dorang develop cepat cepat.
I look so dark and gothic.
Kenapa?
Its the specs.
Itu pasal bile nak tangkap handsome i dont wear my specs.
Hahahahahaha.
Good joke huh?
Kulit Tebal.
Anyway sekarang dah tak ada specs.
Screw dah hilang, dier plastic support pun dah tiada.

Ah pasal chalet.....
Spacious Giler, Sampai B.B.Q pit pun jauh kena jalan. Chalet dier terbuka as in the living room tak ada walls. Nak masuk tak pakai pintu. Dari that spot dah boleh nampak samudera. Picturesque. Lots of greeneries. My Grandmother suka pandang laut sambil dia berdzikir. She finds every chance to be near the laut. Macam dier tgh in a state of peace everytime she just sits facing the sea. Hairan, apa kenangan yang involve the ocean. I also had to become her bodyguard supporting her as she walk through places yang tak ada handrails and naik atas steps. Next time kena pakai name tag "Mobile Handrail". The food was okay. There was plentiful of H2O which is good. Sedih the ice-cream Kak Zsa Zsa brought cair. Also like kakak Ya said, if only Kakak Kirah was there. Didnt sleep the first night. Witnessed rain fall two times in the early morning just before and during Magrib. Got to admit that I was frightened that Cik Pon might come any moment. We [me, kak ya & khabir] hanged around in Cik Tipah's tent main cards. The tent was in the middle of the living room. Kita keluar aja dah boleh nampak pokok-pokok kat luar. Scary lagi ada pokok Kemboja. Basically it was an interesting and fun experience being in a kampung like environment. Best!

Dah ah.
Kene buat kerja.

Pahlawan Putih tak bercermin mata!

I forgot what i had in mind to blog until Kakak Ya reminded me of it.

WHAT IS WRONG BEING HALF INDIAN?
What is wrong even if I m fully indian?
Kena kutuk seh by my maths teacher.
All because I was Listening To indian songs from Devdas.
AND ITS INDIAN NOT KELING OR Suke hati engkau.

Mr Tan, the Accused, Kutuk SEh, like so your half appunenep[you noe the word]
For the love of chappatis and thosai masala, I get mistaken as a Chinese teenageer, My Idendity Card says i am Javanese and I have indian blood.
Does it kill you to have an open mind?
Even though it was jokingly, CELAKA ko ingat ko boleh main main dengan race aku? my roots?
For the love of the merlion, korang in Singaporeans, educated and full of knowledge, susah sangat ke be open minded about this things?
For goodeness sakes, kau ni kan dalam a multi racial society.
Jahanam nyer **** tak tau malu tak sedar diri.
I sit here proud to be who i am and who my ancestors are!
Kahe chhed chhed Mohe!

PAHLAWAN PUTIH

Semalam pergi dikir.
Kononnyer the last time before my Exams.
A bit upsetting.
I only got to sing my heart out on one song, Kamaliah.

Kamaliah buah hatiku,
Kau penghibur jiwaku,
Tak sanggup aku menunggu,
Oh Kembalilah wahai Kamaliahku......

Sedih seh as the rest were new songs [actually old just baru ajar] and I havent been to practice for a long time.
Tapi it was nice to see all my brader brader dikir.
Erzat, aka pirate, was there and he is the funniest in the bunch.
Muka! like rubber. Kelakar lah.
As usual i was the quietest.
I think.
In the sense i never talk much tapi bile part nyanyi[actually only one song]]
Found out Izzad aka Alai also did art [N level]
Wax carving or something like that.
I really wanna scan my pic with my art work ah.
Tapi scanner ni......hai.
Suhardi dah G.I.
Ubay feeling Mat shorts [tak sejuk ke?]
others were basically fine.

Now i dunno whether to go dikir or not later at 3.
I mean as they are having some kind of uji bakat again.
Yesterday sumpah i was scared to voice out when the AdiS asked who wanted to be karut.
Apparently dorang tak nampak aku pakai baju TUKANG MEKARUT.
hahaha. main main jer lah.
Juara pun boleh lah.
hehehe.
I would sing this song....

Renungan matamu setajam panah Arjuna
Menembusi hatiku, terluka dan berdarah
Berlangsir alis selentik merak ratu rimba
Oh Dyan Yulaiha, katakan mengapa
Kau disumpah keanggunan sedemikian rupa.

Fits my vocal chords ah.
K dah ah.
Nak mandi.
Pahlawan Putih

Just did my Chem practical just now.
O'level btw.
Okay ah except it was something we were [or at least i was not prepared for]
Sedih seh kene bakar biscuits to find out how mush energy it produces.
Chem was easy though it has never been dari dulu.

Asyiknya bertandak sambil bercanggah,
Ikut goyang pinggung rentak timur tengah,
Cari cucuk sanggul, Syariffah Alwiyah
Katakan lah dimana.....

[finally sempurna. thanx kakak ya]
I was reciting the song the whole time as i was nervous...
hahaha
Chemistry remix.....

Asyiknya bereffervesence bila dipanas,
Ikut brapa banyak sodium hydroxide,
Cari identiti solution Y dan X,
Katakanlah apa dia.......

Finally art dah habis.
Suatu beban hapus dari kotak fikiran ku.
Now I can actually start studying....I think.
FULL SPEED AHEAD!!!

Besok nak pergi sekolah ke tak?
ala.
ala.
ala.
ala.
Pahlawan putih

helo.
Dah lama tak jumpa got to make it short.
Ya i m fine.
k bye.

Sleepless nights finishing my Art!

Up to three, even four, am in the morning.

Cutting, pasting, colouring, drawing, shading
all in one night.
Lasting until subbmission date - this thursday.
Book your tickets now. Come and keep me company.

Tak bedek.
Penat gila.
Tetapi its okay i guess.
Untuk bersiap sedia untuk mengharungi cabaran masa depan.
Assignments and such in poly/jc, NS, bayi yang tak nak tidur. [eh jauhnyer berfikir]
Dapat 74/100 for assessment tadi even though i have not completed three boards of eight for the o'level submission.
The Devdas CD i borrowed from Kakak Leen, has been keeping me company most of the time.
Sampai boleh hafal part of the script even though its in Hindi.
"Chandramukhi!" -Kali babu, Chandramukhi confrontation. Kelakar!

Also Shariffah Alwiyah

Asyiknya, bertandak sambil ber[tak tau what's the word]
Ikut goyang pinggung rentak timur tengah,
Cari cucuk sanggul shariffah Alwiyah,
Katakan lah dimana..............

The lagu to me soungs so sexual. Tah kenapa.
So the intimate kind of lagu.
Imagining myself searching untuk "her" cucuk sanggul.
dah ah getting freaky.

Sigh dah ah. dah penat.
See ya.
Anything. anyfavours to be done, just gimme a call.
K then .
Pahlawan putih.
[thinking of doing a t-shirt - white Tshirt. Depan "Pahlawan Putih" , belakang the Gambar keris.? maner nak dpt duit?]

Renungan matamu setajam panah Arjuna

Menembusi hatiku, terluka dan berdarah

Berlangsir alis selentik merak ratu rimba

Oh Dyan Yulaiha, katakan mengapa

Kau disumpah keanggunan sedemikian rupa



Dyan Yulaiha, kau tak mungkin aku hampiri

Kerana istanamu jauh sekali

Terapung-apung di atas tasik mimpi

Dipagari pengawal naga bernafas api



Sekiranya aku diberi kuasa sakti

Akanku pedatikan kuda semberani

Akanku sambarmu dari naga bernafas api

Danku bawamu ke hujung pelangi



Aku sangat terpegun dengan lagu ini.
Syariffah Alwiyah also i like.
Baru discover.
Kalau aku nyanyi Dyan Yulaiha, *fuhh!* sedap.
I think the lagu suits my voice. [or my voice suits the lagu]
Untuk kekasih hati.
Anyways....
I m supposed to do art today.
Tuesday submission.
ala.
Malas dari tadi.
did everything else other than art.
Terpaksa buat besok sampai naik giler.
I dont understand why the keris tak nak show itself. [must be the lagu taking too many megabytes and such]
typing whatever that comes to mind.
the shamil, andy, and ahmads's birthday was quite okay since it was kali pertama seeing rumah kakak zaza.
the plan of the house sama dengan rumah abang eddy. [another house i dont go often ;isolator]
Kakak ya rambut........*fuhh power* seriously speaking aku pun terpikat. [hahahahaha]

Does my template look like mcdonalds?
macam jahanam to "i m lovin' it" campaign.
Copy orang nyer template aja.
Is getting really berbahang these days.
Senang peluh.
dah ah nak tukar stuff pulak.
see ya.