Harlo...

Does anyone know what Forest Fire is in malay? all i got so far is Kebakaran Hutan

Friday was a great day. In the morn ard 6.50, Nas smsed me. Confirmed our first meeting in years! Went to school earlier for a resheduled tutorial, then a disgusting tiring lab. We had to salivate in to cups. I came in as undefeated drooler with 6ml of pure spit in 2mins whereas others average of only 2ml. It was gross ah. After lab, preparations for CCN day were a bit slow. We couldnt find the spot our stall had to be in the first place. After reaching there we had to get the tables ourselves [More like me and Jas]. It was hilarious when we stole a stack of chairs. Thing is we had to go up to the 5th floor to get the chairs and tables. Before we got on the lift the second time ard, we saw a stack of chairs conviniently sitting near the lift. We took the stack and run. hahah. Save the energy for shouting.
If you saw a sign saying NATTOO [name of our stall in flourescent orange and blue] I painted that. If you saw the tribal black and white table cloth, my mom bought that from the reject shop. Art students are resourceful. But i'm multi purpose [serbuk serba guna]
Went off to pray then got back there. Shouted like nobody's business. Then went off to meet Nas.
Nas came with Safraz then we meet up with Dhan. Went to Macdonalds nearest the post office and just chatted. It was very much a dream just having a conversation with Nas. Like hard to believe kinda thing. Just great walking and chatting with the three of them. Maybe i'll meet nas agan before she leaves again one the 12th. Nas has change definately. But somethings were definately familiar hahaha. Thing is you and dhan didnt have to talk about dikir. haha. I'm fine with almost any topic.
The gathering made me happy the rest of the day. Thanks again Nas, Saf and Dhan for the great time. =D

Dikir. Great session this time. The studio almost packed, lots of people showed up. We sang and we sang. AAAAAAA hahaha. I felt like i could make a difference. I opened up the studio, the store, took out the white board kept count of the baju then after that return the keys. But i still have my doubts and the things i dont like about my group. Andika's comp would be a good gauge how we have matured. Cerita belom habis. Majam Jakon, Suhardi let me tompang to Haig road on his motorbike.
See it was exciting cos i never rode on a motor before. Also, after breaking two of my adult font teeth and having them replaced with really yellow subsitutes after a bicycle fall, i developed a small phobia for tompangs. haha. Now i feel like riding a motor [for a while].

Then yesterday, we had an outdoor session. Takde rebana takde percussion basically. Tepuk sepuluk [or tepuk panjang] with help of the mouth. hahah. kosong sia. hahah

One of the hard drive with all my files and my familiy's files got a virus and so the computer had to be swept clean. Bingit seh. ARGH!!! all my pictures. All the music. All the Msn chat logs. ARHGHGHGHGHGHGH

What do you do when someone you thing you have a connection with looks at you when you look and the someone at the same time. You get to look at a full face with all the eye contact. Ahhh in love again. hahaha This time dont ask me who it is. =P

Ya Allah ya tuhanku, kurnia kan lah ari esok dengan rahmatmu. Basahilah bumi dengan hujan pada hari petang buat ku main rugby gi tengah padang. Amin.

Its getting late. My eyes tired. my fingers tired
Pahlawan Putih

Lets meet again sahara...

Came back an hour ago from Bishan. Reason is i was painting a signboard for use of a carnival-ic event tomorrow. Its named CCN day and its a day where we try to work our butts off and raise funds for the needy students of the polytechnic. Hmm.. Overpopulated by girls, they decided that its best they did nail art and temporary body tattoos. I mean where else does a tattoo go to if not your body. I'm pretty skeptical. Thing is i'll also miss 2 hours of the 4 since i must go prayers. yup...

I skipped rugby today too because off that.
I wonder why it rains a day after or before rugby training days. Then on the training days itself, its warm and dry. Miss the mud.

Been searching the net on Ouds or Uds. The string instrument commonly used in the middle eastern ensembles. The melody is so intriguing and complex. I could also not image playing such a fine instrument though i wouldnt mind having one to experience its wonder. So cool.

Work is definately piling up. I have 3 projects from the same subject. how dumb. Now.. where's my pencil?

More importantly where's my brain.
Pahlawan Putih

I cant help but think its by luck.

I've been missing this certain someone code named: "sahara". [ghahaha] I usually see sahara and there's this connection i should say. Everytime before and when we meet i just get all excited. Last month or so i didnt get a chance to see sahara. Definately a bummer. But after the last post i got to meet Sahara. We didnt talk much but its usually like that. Just body language. You make me melt. Still the same feelings i get when i see sahara..... aaaaaaaaaaaah~ =)

I made a touch! haha. Yesterday during touch rugby i made my first touch. [Touch is the term for goal] Aaaah. We got a chance to play with rhinos. Thick 90 cm by 30 cm heavy sponge to work on your driving skills. You'd look like spongebob squarepants when you wear the handles on your arms and the rhino against your chest. My scapular still hurts.

On Sunday, there was a National day celebration thing involving old folks from pertapis. It is an annual event held by Geylang CC. Last year it was at Kampung Melayu. We, as a youth group, were involved in entertaining the old folks. Our set was merepek but it was enjoyable and we really filled the hall with our voices as if we had built in amplifiers. After that we got some grub and left the cc. Next destination was an orang kahwin in bukit panjang. [It was a darn tiring journey.] The wedding was very minimal, budjet. But the keema was great. We did a few sets then me and amin being the only east dwellers made a move. penat seh.

Wabak. hmm...

What happened on saturday?
Oh ya nothing. haha. I just slept and slept.

I wonder where's Nas. We were supposed to meet up last friday.

I'm supposed to do a group project on the Characteristics that Makes Fish Smell [smthing].

I went to parco and wheelock just now. Reason is i had a $50 Nike voucher to claim. THERES ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!. Thats why i went form parco to wheelock. Hoping there be more variety. But same thing. Settled for a simple polo shirt. The swimming trunks $47.50 siak!! Mayut.

Jelly belly dissappear. [Taps magic wand to tummy]

Signing out,
Pahlawan Putih

I miss you.
I miss you like the Sahara misses rain.
I miss you like the Sahara misses rivers meandering through it.

Miss you and the way a stream of excitement flows through me when you are around.
Miss you and the wafts of adrenline that engulfs me like the immense sunshine at noon.

Every passing of the dust-laden Khamsin reminds me of my solitude.
Every passing of the moisture pilfering Harmattan makes me ponder on what wrong i have done you.
Every passing of the seemingly aimless Sirocco evokes regret and pain like the scalding sand to a blister.
Every passing of the desiccating and arid Simoom reminds me of you.
Everything reminds me of you and rekindles the hope of being with you.

Why does the frigorific nights remind me of your actions?
Why the cold shoulder?
Even the moon isnt as arrogant.
Why didnt you smile at me?
Even the moon smiles in pity of my state.
Why wont you give me even a glance?

Dont you see I gave up everything?
Dont you see I have nothing left?
Dont you see I did this for you?
Dont you see I wait patiently?

All I see are mirages of you.
Mirages that cant be captured.

I miss you. It is uncomparable to any ambivalence.
I miss the affection.
I miss the concordance.

"Smile. Show me you still do."
Pahlawan Putih.

Hey

That blogger search bar is like a wart. One that cant be removed. Maybe I should move.

Oray Welang.

Theres a virus in my computer. Full effects not seen yet. Just paralysing the anti virus software.

Pras Pris.

Yesterday was kinda cool. I didnt have a HAP tutorial. Met rashidah by chance and went to a lecture with her. HER lecture. She's in engineering so it was a different thing as a whole. However i have always found learning about how things work interesting so i wasnt that bored. About water pumps and tanks. And oh if shidah says she knows someone that looks like someone else, dont belive her. hahah... [Mana sama kau bilang aku? Muka lain ko ckp mcm dekni dektu.]

Wenesdays and Thurdays are days that drag you by hooks on your eyelids and the skin on your back across rocky fields of boredom attached to a giant snail thats strong enough to pull u but too tardily.

When am i making sense?

Nas! We up for friday?

Hai.. abhor this.

Pahlawan Putih

Can't help falling in love with yoouuu.......!

Its the attack of Songs in the Distant memory. The version of the song where the singer had a very rustic rough voice was nice.

Failed my maths test. Dont think i need tuition [haha]. Most of my mistakes were careless ones where i missed out the + - sign and basically careless mistakes. Could've gotten the 4 marks i need to pass easily if i was more alert. [grabs my shoulder and shakes wildly. Gets into a squabble with myself. Pow! Bish! Bang!]

I expected to dramatically improve my catching. Unfortunately the world doesnt work that way. Will need to pratice regularly. Things should improve especially since i have been adopted. haha.. Yesterday we did our drills in the dark astro turf then played a game of touch. My senior said i most probably become a winger. Thus improvement in my catching skills is crucial.

I should list down the things people say about me. It all doesnt create a picture in the end> "Well you look mildly malay" hahaha what next?

Rojak Kehidupan
Pahlawan Putih

Suddenly,
All my troubles seem so far awaaaaaaaaaaaay....

Yaah right. School starts in about 12 hours. Been trying to figure somethings out before that happens.
In the term break i realised i'm few of those lucky one who dont have group projects to do. I guess its my course. For Shidah and the rest of yous, good luck / all the best. After the next week, i'd have a chance to choose a Cross Disciplinary subject. Its only recently that i've seen my choices. Maybe sociology. Human health and dieseases. And some other.

"I guess i'm tired of routine" I just wanna float out on the ocean. Just float, gazing up to the fluffed up sky. Maybe watch a sunset or two. Sigh.


I bought Lighthouse Family greatest hits. Makes me sleep [it is a good thing] $22 bucks at MJ

The following are the highlights of my term break.
- Noora's Party on saturday
- Going swimming on monday
- Hang out with the IRAs [kIRAh & munIRA] and gang.
- Meeting up with Shidah at Tampines stadium training.
- Watch Lilo & stitch just now and part of Monster's Inc.
- Outdoor and Dinner at Beach Road with Dikir mates.
- And prolly just not doing anything but eat and grow old on the otherdays.

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	awakening my heart
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	one of a kind
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What? Cant a guy be in the mood for tests other than academic ones?
Pahlawan Putih

Hey
You know when you wrote a post and by accident it's lost and you MUST blog about it.

Just found out i missed a rugby training the past thursday. Selenger!. I read the msg as the next thursday. So blur. The last time i did it when i was supposed to show up for job training. Lagging nowadays.

There's a rugby game 2am in the morn in a while. I'm trying to stay up.

Outdoor session just know. Boleh tahan.Suara dah serak. Tangan bengkak ajer. No big deal. haha..

Nafrikid welcomes Nastassia back to Singapre all the way from canada. I'm blur and thats why i told you NDP encore is on sunday when it was today. I'm really sorry. Losing my mind haah.

I have discovered the Javan melody that has the potential to be used. Suhardi's excited. And i'm excited. This could be a whole new chapter.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'm just drowsy
Pahlawan Putih

Did you watch tv?

The Malay dude who's father just passed away was really something. Could imagine he was in a zone. So full of expression and feelings.

This hols aint too well for me. I havent been doing anything much but sleep and eat. My plan to organise failed or i'm convinced its postponed so i gonna start a term probably unprepared. When i'm hungry i eat. When i'm not i also eat. I eat eat eat. Now i feel like cooking for myself a bowl of maggi.

I think i will. [Water's begining to boil.]

Finally i bought a rugby ball. However i dunno what in the world i'm gonna do with it. I'm just throwing it to the ceiling then catching it back again. Flashing in my mind the last time i played touch. It haunts me. The way i didnt catch the ball about 5 times. haha. Then when i got the ball i am stunned and i just dont know what to do. Fan, fan...

[Noodles and seasoning in]

I'm in the works of writing something.
Adi K is thinking of using a Jawa melody for our next comp. I'm very interested in this project. Doing research. Very hard to find Javanese vocals. When you type Javanese in an mp3/audio search, most likely you get is gamelan. I found some songs with vocals but the originate from Sunda. Gamelan still has melody so i thought maybe tap on that too. I'm kinda excited for the next comp. We're having an outdoor training on saturday at the usual marina place. Sentosa came to amin's and my mind at first. Last time we went was ages ago. Palawan Beach. Best seh. The say its like when the went to kelantan. The swimming part after training was fun.
Sigh... why do i let nostalgia get the best of me?

[Argh mee aku kembang. Sprinkles some ikan bilis on top]

I wish i had a twin. Then i wouldnt be this bored. Haha..random

[Bon apetite]
Pahlawan Putih

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (50%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (50%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Are You Right or Left Brained?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Is what i really expected to be! Cant believe i'm this balanced. Got it from Kelkatu's blog btw. [Thanks]

New song. Aint no sunshine - Lighthouse Family. Their album's $28- where am i gonna get that kind of money?

Alo.

National Day was boring. As i grow i realised this. The Goh Chok Tong Tribute was great though. For once i reconsidered not leaving Singapore when i retire. It just sucks that Singapore is heavily populated. I hate crowded places. I wanna live by the beach. I probably said that a thousand times already. The effects of the tribute didnt last long so now i made up my mind again. However maybe in the future things may seem brighter? Seemingly rajin, and since mom wasnt at home, i made Chicken Kiev. Being a big fan of cheese, i added it in. It was nice. Ler semangat mash potatos. Watched too much J oliver i say.

Yesterday, alomost everyone was at home. It was a school holiday. Bah. Out of nowhere i decided to go swimming at the Changi Civil Service Club. It was odd that i felt hot after the swim. But ya after exercises its usually hot. Did 20+ laps. After that i went to the side of the pool where the jacuzzi is and relax. Water dissolves ones stress. Dah lama tak swimming nyer pasal. And yes i was there acompanying myself. I dont think i can find a person who wants to do what i wanna do. While thinking of going for a movie, i'd have just gone by myself. This is because things dont go as they are planned and basically its fucked up waiting for people who are late. And you can do anything you want.

Friends are great and all. They help past the time.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Pahlawan Putih

Hey

Ruffedge singing for Noora a song.


Noora's gift


I came up with this for Noora's present. I took it like an art assignment i use to do in School. Had fun making it. Before the thing itself i asked Noora what she want/ or give me clues or just something to work on. She told me pink, baby blue, stars. Hehe..
"Hand made piece incorporating papercut and painting. Influenced by Arab geometric designs and the sunset, this pieces is an illusion of looking out of the window. Priceless" [cehh priceless]
Thanks for inviting me again. The party was great.


In the Prophet's Mosque


This is the pictures i took with my camera while in Masjid Nabawi, Madinah. It took me so long to just upload it. hehe..I pray for those who have dreams to go there. May god bless you with a chance to visit his mosques. Its simply great there. Oh btw.. supposedly no cameras allowed in the mosque. [snicker]

The family went up to Malaysia with Nenek and Cik Norli's family. She spent the night here. Nenek's funny lah. In the morning, she wanted to drink coffee but it was too hot so she asked me to wash clean a flask so she can bring the coffee with her to Malaysia.. Half way just rinsing the flask, i realised something and went back to change the channel. Nenek said "Oh dier tengah tengok tv" While channel surfing I ACCIDENTLY TER-switch the tv to MTV. And at that point of time some skimpy black girl was dancing in a music video. Hahaha. Nenek's reaction was hilarious. She told Kiffy and Dedeel to tutup mata when all this things come out on TV. haha..
I remember the time she used to say that to the three elder ones when she took care of us. Kissing parts on the TV would result in a reflex see no evil position - eyes close with hand(s) covering them for extra protection. Sekarang dah lain cerita. heheh..

One week ahead of me. Maybe tomorrow i'll clean up my room. The rest of the days i just dont want to see a lectures face, lecture notes or tutorials. I need to enjoy this week cos its the only week i have of holiday. 7-9 weeks after this is my Semestral exams. No breaks in between. Sigh.

I spent the afternoon finishing up left over ice-cream and peanut butter. Notice that they were leftovers. Puny amounts. I watch a National Geographic reality game program about/on/in Singapore. Singapore's so lame. hahah.. They went Har Paw Villa, Night Safari, Eat fish head curry, Ride trishaw, Ask 10 people to Sing national anthem [National embarassment since there were a few who didnt know how to] drink singapore sling and Pluck a Vanda Miss Joaquim. Not in sequence. I was supposed to go to swimming today at Changi Civil Service Club. Then buy dinner at changi [Aku idam kan Nasi lemak changi]. However i fell asleep in an anticlimax slumber. End up eating Cambell Soup for dinner. To think of it i'm hungry.

"SIA SIA BETA SULTAN MELAKA."
The sultan says it too excessively in the Cathay Malay Film, Tun Fatimah. Blahdy.

It took me 5 trys to upload pic to my post. This sucks.

NOOO.... im bloggin to much....
Pahlawan Putih

Finally.
Dikir was much livelier yesterday. Guys from Amuk purba and Anak Watan came down. Like amin said: Training macam gini once a year. Hahah true. The big group made training less mendak. After the term test [which i guess i would suck at] a nice unpeaceful session of shouting my vocal chords out is much callled for.

Happy Birthday Noora. 16 this year.
Guilt has landed on my weak heart. I feel this way cause i made something of a high standard. It just happened. No plans at all.

Good luck for your O's btw.
To think of it i know many people who are taking their O's this year. Like Diana, Faqeehah, Fath and some retaking, Helfi & hidayah. Well all the best guys.

The agony of knowing what you did wrong in a test right after the test. ARGH!

Jangan Dewi Jangan Begitu, Senyum Senyum lah selalu,
Manis,riang, wajah bertambah ceria....

7 more days to Nas's return. Good luck for your finals.. ;p

There's an album i bought that i wont regret buying. M. Nasir's Mentera Semerah Padi. Its two CD of his greatest hits yet. 23 of unexplainably great songs. I wonder who's Nur Nilam Sari.

Senyumanmu Satu Azimat,
Pahlawan Putih

Marilah Bergoyang...

The song is Casually serious. With a touch of solemn hilariousness.
Like the flutes part.

Mata Kaji Semariseng....

I may have found a new interpretation for Pahlawan Putih.

Someone once said to me that i could do anything but i'll have to work for it and be brave. I lack this thing they call courage. I pale when something sudden or big happens. I get frightened and nervous. This is where i mess up.
"Jangan kau gentar pada bayang-bayang sendiri"
Is there a cure? How do i stop chills down my spine everytime it stops me from acheiving something? Most of the time i miss out on opportunities. Then i tend to regret for not acting wisely and messing up. This is me. Pahlawan Putih. The one who believes he has the potential but doesnt have the guts to do so. Cause he pales everytime there is an opportunity.

Sigh.

I spent most last Saturday in Singapore Poly. Awallah Dongdang. The show was great and dikir being dikir was as usual.
Tak pernah start cepat, tak pernah abis cepat.
Kalau show selalu last minit.
But it was great. Had fun. Panjy are a great bunch of people. Star of the experience was Nurul Huda, my ex-schoolmate [primary]. I mean to see a malay play the violin is something. But to see her play really traditional malay tunes is something else. I dont want it to repeat again but it seems like it IS happening again. Had a hard time keeping my mouth shut at the rehearsal room watching her play. She's good ah. From the Malay orchestra. I remember annoying her when we sat next to each other in malay class. Well it seems i annoy alot of people. [hehe] But annoying people makes sure they remember you. hahah.. She remembered my name but i couldnt say the same for hers initially. I remember nurul or nor. Nas confirmed her name. I had butterflies. Sudah bermula lagi sebuah kisah kedukaan...

I had Principles of Inorganic and Physical Chemistry test just now. I picture myself falling down a cliff when i realised what i did wrong right after the test. Its always a so close yet so far case.

Right now i'm over looking the thorns that knot in a horrid embrace and focusing on the horison where the sun sets peacefully in amber hues. The amber hue is my term break next week! CANNOT WAIT to jump and roll on the floor.


What to get what to get...

Its just another infactuation. Or is it?
This may be the result of solitude.

This blog is about the biggest discovery. Me.
Pahlawan Pucat