Ahai Kembang Kiambang...

...merah jambu
terapung-apung di atas Tasik Chini
kelopakmu ibarat papan gelungsur si pari-pari
akarmu menghurai bak mayang sari tempat ikan bermain sembunyi-sembunyi
disitu segumpal hati, bersenandung sayu bernyanyi-nyanyi.

Ahai Tuhan yang ku sanjungi
kenapakah malangku bergini
kalau akal dan hati tidak serasi
bagaimana pula dengan jati diri

Ahai apa perlu di ungkit ungkit kembali
kisah lama yang sudahku sembunyi
walau perit di hati, tetapku membuta tuli
moga-moga hidup tak bertambah sepi

Ahai sang basikal biru bahari
mengapa kau menghilangkan diri
sehari ku risau menanti
mengenang masa engkau berbakti

Ahai keluargaku di Geylang Serai CC
maafkanlah ku yang ingin berdikari
'Jangan kau hanyut', pesanan naluri
'Kerana, ataupun bukan kerana seni'

Ahai hati yang berbelah bagi
kononnya enggan berdiam ubi lagi
kucar kacir yang engkau beri
mungkin benar engkau batu api

Ahai cinta kita yang dilarang ini
kembalilah engkau dilubuk sanubari
Jangan kau mengalir dalam nadi
Biar engkau dan aku berbisu, disemadi

Ahai Cinta yang dinanti-nanti
beribu cita-cita, mimpi mimpi
mati terkorban akibat digari
agar tidak menerawang, menari-nari

Ahai Tuhan yang ku kasihi
Hilangkanlah semua kesan dengki
dan semuanya yang engkau mungkari
Agar ku tidak lelah dek berkelahi

Ahai Pahlawan Putih
kenapa engkau tidak berani
putih warnamu bila peluang menanti
penuh sesalan pula bila ia pergi

I feel like a cup of teh and 2 roti prata telur @ As-Salihin.
So bloody depressed. And it seems talking to people only makes it worst.

Ingin sanda berada di pangkuanmu
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Ahai, bertapanya indah...





Moga hingga ke akhir zaman.
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i have given up.

from this point on, i shall work to at least a pass so i dont have to relive torturing lectures and tutorial.

I have never believed in divorces. Which is more or less quiting.
Till the 12 of september.

Abhorance, here you come.

Learn to shut up
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Updated!



For the benefit of all, "Open to All!" refers to all tp students. If you wanna go for this event then unfortunately you'll have to be a tp student. So somehow you'll to enrol in TP before the 24/25th september. heh... macam ada orang luar nak gi...

will update more soon. including links
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Persada

Hope everything goes well for this event. Considering my exams may already have no hope.

The guys are already pressurizing me... Cinta sgt kot dengan penulis dorang? hahaha im gonna die.

What's the meaning of If to you?
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FOR THE LOVE OF CRUNCHY PAPPADOMS!

Stop annoying me already.

Practical 8 is the last practical for Catering Technology. I one i had to roll pretzels for? The one where the following pics explain? The one that people thought aku gi ambik lesen moto. Padahal padahal. Kalo tengok di side bar, you would know im not even 18 yet. Nangz boti nangz...

ALAKAZAMZ, baikkanlah tagboard aku!

Quotes of the month.

"Its quite shocking and heart-wrenching how ruthless some people are behind their demure look."

"Some people are so egoistic and with just a little achievement and recognition they forget their roots and become so proud"

"Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua."


Hahahah... I knew it was coming. Well, if your talking about me, can i ask, What roots are you talking about and what do you mean by proud? Wasnt i already like this before that? How would you know?
All the best in your life. May you realise one day that your actions have consequences and that the peribahasa is used in the wrong context. Maybe one day your sarcasm will improve too. Amin

I just realised i analyse people alot. And the more i get to know someone, the more i tend to detest them. Maybe i should learn how to focus on the good.

I dont have time for this - Lies and despicable actions.

Aku memang Durjana
Bukankah kita semua?
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I give up!

(..momentarily only)

Supposed to be in school doing a test on nutrition in Adulthood but i thought, what the heck. Going to fail NLS anyways(supp paper here i cometh). And its about to rain anyways, and my eyelids feel heavy again uuuuuh. I'll take this 'free' time to blog.

Sunday
Was an interesting day. Tumpat had our first mass outing together. Itu pun pasal chance. Started off with a Show at Tampines Mall's open stage at the roof at 9am in the morning. It was so hard to wake my self up. But eventually did. The event was some Geylang Serai Youth Group Biennial General Meeting. Yang terhidang, Polar Puff's puffs - Apple, curry, chicken etc. Abeh tu kelakarnya main 4-4. Tak cukup orang. Tapi kena complain dengan abg ambik gambar yang kita kuat sgt. hahaha bedeknya. Then with the package, we were each given tickets to private screening of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and $3 voucher for a combo. First time 18 members watch movie together-geder. After that dapat naik Moto! haha. From Tam-pines to Arab street. Peri cari kain. Sebelum tu makan sama-sama kat zam-zam. Ta-u bawak camera...

"Siapa dia itu? Senyum-senyum padaku
Bertapanya Ayu, Raut wajahmu
Oh nonaku, Si baju biru
Nona si baju biru"

Yesterday i had practical 8. Alhamdulillah it went alright. some pics.

Decorations by me. I even convinced people i was previously from shatec. Padahal2

oooh international cuisine

We had tofu loaf and miso soup from japan, potato patties and red cauliflower from mexico, spicy chicken from thailand, brushettes from italy, chocolate tart and chocolate covered strawberries from France and lastly pretzels (topped with cinamon sugar or grated parmesan) from North America.

Okay, wanna go catch somemore zzz before i leave for school.
I'm such a lazy ass.

Dengar dengar kelana link aku. heheh

Amat bahagia?
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Chin-ta...

Binatang apa itu?
Berkuasa untuk memutar bumi. Mengerak askar. Memilu insan.
Atau ia hanya satu dongengan? Suatu yang tersirat dalam cerita-cerita boneka?
Apa mungkin, apa mungkin...

Yes. Its C-I-N-T-A. Theme for Planet Dikir the Finale. The one charging $12 for tickets. Mak 'I'z. More importantly, the one i have to find an idea to.

What is cinta?
(What is love?)

Oh i just got an idea!!!
How about making up a story about a merman and a old lady fisherman who were caught in the net of love in between the islands of madura and bawean. And they cared for each other so much that every second that passed without each other's company was excruciating for the both of them as they are filled to their heads with worry. So the merman whispers to the dolphins to save the fisherlady in case something bad happens like a storm. The fisherlady worries for the merman especially when he swims to the deepest ocean. Her worries go awild as she fears for his safety from the pincer of the crab and the notorious shark.
Eh macam pernah dengar aja... heheh

Talking about oceans and seas, i went to sentosa with the bunch on national day anyways (~4 days ago). Skin still peeling of due to the absence of sunblock on the trip itself. I had fun at tanjong beach. Pictures are courtesy of dee. They're in my fotopages. Its really theraputic to do stuff you dont normally/"arent supposed" to anymore at your age, like building sandcastles. hahah. (thinking of it makes me giggle). Well thats the only thing that happened. The cord my phone was dangling from gave way and so it went into the water. For approximately 10sec i didnt know where it was(the waves were crashing especially hard at that point of time. Kuasa Allah) It was drenched and not working. Still not working

So now im left without a phone, my source of music (senang kata mp3 player), my document storage, my files. my files. Indrah's singings, ayie's singings, my singings (blueack - how to spell the vommit sound?) All the memories/memorise.

Im start to make no sense now. I think too much computer radiation

I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO PLAY MINESWEEPER!!!

haha
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Project Anti-Projects

I was up till 1 doing my APFS project. Friends being friends, they decided it was best to keep me uninformed of the extended deadline. I wish i had a parang. Buat garang. Dah malam-malam. Jgn sampai perang.

Though its nice to have friends that understand the hard time im facing. Tryna cope. Tryna smile. Well its either that or they have absolutely no trust in my ability to excel.



Hehehehe i'll go with the latter.. hahahaha

Rindu, rindu~
"Di sini kisah bermula mani beradu tenaga merebut takhta
Di pinggiran muar laut merah terbelah dua
Dan tatkala itu mata Al-aswad memuntahkan cahaya
Detik bab pertama tangis sahaya menyapa cuping dunia"

Theres a picnic tmrw. Do i wanna go? i dunno. beri kan ku se cangkir, kopi halia, buat ubat si ayam buta~sjlisuli/DFhbasdnl

Gersang arus minda...
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Harloz

Im not sure why but i have been adding 'z's at the end of wordz (esp in sms-es). Likez whatz upz withz thatz....?

Anywayz, i just stopped playing Blooming Gardens from Miniclip.com. To think im listening to Kissed by a Rose - Seal from the old new batman movie. heh
Well its a nice song...

I dunno how to describe my mood right now. Its a cross between a few thousand emotions. Maybe its just part and parcel of being a teenager a.k.a. 'young adult'. So many feelings to be felt. So many desires not yet met. So many insecurities to hide. So many complications, so little time.
And i never fail to mention how i wish i was living a simpler life. Then again, maybe there's no such thing as a simple life....

sigh....(grining weakly)

If only life could be revolving around dikir, culture, music, script writing bengkels, techno, starbucks, art, self made lanterns, false paper windows, cousins wedding, MAG, lunches at Designer's Pad, that 8 seconds of screaming & holding back nausea as the roller coaster goes down the steep section.......


Im online waiting for anyone of my group members to come online. We have a project due tommorow and i can definately do nothing with information from any of them. Thus this is confirmation to my abhorance to group projects/assignments.

Why?
I didnt plan for this to happen?
The unintentional plea...

Headache, Stomachache, Heartache, Hardboil egg
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Wah han hey...

Today was just another day. A day i worried away. Had resolutions which did not stay. Had fishcakes as hard as clay. Wah lan lay...

Went to my house to try out a pretzel recipe we will be doing for catering technology lab practical 8. Well it was okay. Cept i was bounded by a invisible force of lethargy.
They came out nice. Were delectible when hot.

Us tryna act sexy


Can do a commercial.


And im just about done with Catering Tech presentation. Its tommorow hor. Sian ah

Lets trackback to what i have been doing. Well for last week, most of the evenings were spent in school training for International Cultural night. Well it was an interesting experience dancing. Though i was described as kaku (stiff) esp my shoulders i had fun. I guess because i was allowed to shout my heart out while dancing. But reprecussions suck. And the make up that made my "profession-touch" make-up artist describe me as a drag. wah han hay....

Well usually after the practices, we would head to techno for a plate of fried empty calorie foods. heh. But on the 29th itself, i decided to be a bit dangerous. Went to starbucks instead. I guess i was rewarded orh. Really got to know true colours of some people. Best part was the laughing. So long never do that sia. Many times i was asking myself whether i was dreaming or not. If all goes well, we might even meet again for a Anti-drumming National Day Pot luck Picnic.
With diyana around, i dont think theres a need for fireworks to crack me up.

Then on saturday i went to SPH at Braddell. I enroled for a script writting workshop organised by Berita Harian, lead by Nadi putra (correct?). Getting myself in a whole new realm. Its interesting how different it is from writing lyrics. Its interesting how scripts give birth to stories with the aid of proper acting. An eye opener nonetheless. Just like the bunch i hung out with that day. Ili, most entertaining, most spontaneous, felt like partners in crime. Our group i guess had the best take at an out of the box storyline. Well its about a box lor.

Still so busy, Still so disconnected with school. And at times, before i venture to the land of dreams at night, i hope all the complications i am facing vanish at dawn break, just before my eyes open to greet life.

Note to self: Sleeping does not solve problems. Cept the 'lack of sleep' problem.

Now its difficult to get the song out of my head...

Hai telok belangah..lah namanya...
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