So much for curbing desire.

A Tall Caramel Frappacino with 2 pumps of caramel syrup was too tempting. Sigh. 4.95 i wont see again.

I've been searching for a place to study. My prerequsites?
- Cool, windy
- Room for me to fold my legs
- or lay back facing up. [tiarap]

Usually my room would do but i just cant concentrate. So many distractions. Tomorrow i'll try Cik Tipah's void deck. I really need to study man. Cancelled out group studys coz i just wont do anything. SIGH!

I need to find the black cardboard i used for the present. Popular doesnt sell it anymore. In time i may just be able to do it for everyone.

AAAAAAAAAAArrrrrggghh...
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Anyone else like to chew on Ikan bilis?

Mother gave me money yesterday to get clothes for raya. Reason is there's a sale at Metro Century Square. 29.95 for a cool shirt.

A good way to swim is to not have a snapped goggle strap.

I did it again. Just couldnt keep my hands still.



For her 23rd birthday.
"My inspiration is from the classic indian mango shape with bold strokes and intricate designs in the core. The violet and purple hues were blended in to create a flow of colour. Kirah's blog pretty much inspired the whole thing."
Thanks for liking it =D

Im currently in study week. Pretty much just lazing around first. When we entered they say this was the week we didnt have to go to school but i'm begining to think otherwise. I plan to make notes, go revise and practice but i seem to be more concerned with excersing. Dunno why.

Good job Irfan. Nice work curbing desire. -- My route home is laced with temptation. There's Macdonald, Burger King and the worst of them all... Long John Silver. Always thinking of the crisp shell and the boneless chicken breast[shrunk probably due to the Bird Flu hooha] the sweet flowy chilli sauce and the coleslaw. So everday i challenge myself so as not to waste money and settle with mom's cooking. I save money and am quite happy. If you focus, you can do it babey.

Ikan Bilis has lots of calcium.
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Come Fly With Me..............

Wohoo. Dunno what im doing online. .....(sits thinking for 10mins.)

Um.

Ouh. Happy Birhtday Kakak Kirah.

I was scrambling to complete her present.

These day blogging happens coincidentally for me already. I mean i go through other peoples blogs and see what i want to blog. Heh. Examples are like from Kelkatu's, Adi's, Vio's... no more ideas.

So bored. Sorry guys.

In study week
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Fever


Never know how much I love you
Never know how much I care
When you put your arms around me
I get a fever that's so hard to bear
You give me fever when you kiss me
Fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning
Fever all through the night.

Sun lights up the daytime
Moon lights up the night
I light up when you call my name
And you know I'm gonna treat you right
You give me fever when you kiss me
Fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning
Fever all through the night

Ev'rybody's got the fever
That is something you all know
Fever isn't such a new thing
Fever started long ago

Romeo loved Juliet
Juliet she felt the same
When he put his arms around her
He said 'Julie, baby, you're my flame
Thou giv-est fever when we kisseth
Fever with thy flaming youth
Fever I'm afire
Fever yea I burn for sooth'
Captain Smith and Pocahantas
Had a very mad affair
When her daddy tried to kill him
She said 'Daddy, o, don't you dare
He gives me fever with his kisses
Fever when he holds me tight
Fever, I'm his misses,
Oh daddy, won't you treat him right'

Now you've listened to my story
Here's the point that I have made
Chicks were born to give you fever
Be it Fahrenheit or centigrade
They give you fever when you kiss them
Fever if you live and learn
Fever till you sizzle
What a lovely way to burn
What a lovely way to burn
What a lovely way to burn

Ard 2mins to upload. Dang nice song.

Ouh kau mendemamkan
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Salutations...

I dragged my feet to NTUC, Evergreen, and 3 popular outlets in Tampines. Hell. I cant find the pen that i am comfortable with. Its Pilot V Ball Fine. Dang tired of searching. fak. Now i'm here planning where next to look for that pen. Thinking of going to the warehouse or something to buy a big carton of those pens to last me till the day it runs out. heh. But seriously. I need that pen to do my exams man... HOW?

Haloscan doesnt like me.

Michael Bublé

The school library is so interesting. I loaned a CD. Dont know why i m into Jazz but woohoo. Most of the lyrics dont ryhme. Guess is a form of liberating expression. Can I Just Have One More Moondance With You My Love?

Ilhan came by as he wanted follow my mom, from his house. Hyper dude. He pronounces nenek as "mitmit".

Just had my Science in Food Preparation Lab test this afternoon. All i had to do was boil two eggs to show colour difference. Bertuah hah. The explaination i had to do flowed out like water. So freaky that i was revising the same thing before that. Freaky i tell you!

You give me fever!
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Trust me when i say i deserved it.



Muahaahaahaa....



Ceh slick ah. haha



Hmm...


As you can roughly see i have been messing around with my dad's camera.

Had a formal presentation just now. Totally lost the momentum as the powerpoint file didnt want to come out rite. It wouldnt be shocking if i fail Comm skill. But ya...Comm skills? wtbf. Now i've already seen Angel and Jasmine cry. Its kinda i dunno how to describe. Sorry again ah angel. Ahaha

My chest! argh it hurts. My abs [or lack thereof] painful. Coughing so painful. Raising arms also. Really made the best of the 1.50 i spent at Bedok Gym. ow.

Nenek collasped. Hope she doing fine. Visited her at rumah Cik Norli on Sunday. They had lots of disscussion what to do and found that it was best for her to go to GH that moment. If i had a say i would have waited for the next day cause it was very rushy. Dr Balkis came to check on her and mami gia was all nurse-ly mentioning really smoothly the names of the medicine she takes. To think of it i have an uncle and three aunts who are nurses. So weird. After tests and the brain scan, she was found to have a blood clot in the brain. Its still very surreal. At lost of words.
Got nostalgic while in the bus. I remember the time nenek babysitted the 3 elder ones. I remember the times she bathed me with this bar of soap in her hands and her noisy wooden trompah. I would have to hold the thin pipe to prevent from slipping. Hygiene is important to her and all.
Also i remember the time where we all sat watching TV. She would hold a cup of coffee in her hand and we would take crackers to dip it in there. Still remembered the show that was on. It was some story of soldiers dying just cause they looked up to the moon. i forgot what else. haha..
To summarise i cant thank my nenek enough. I never will. Now that reality begins to set in, i hope i do. This hari raya would be interesting...

Exams in ard Two weeks!
ARgh. Runs around in circles till i hit a wall.

I cant bend.
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The weekends are always worth blogging.

Adventure Learning Programme on Saturday.
Funathalon. Sheesh, the names the come up with. The tooot cause it was compulsory. Face moulting like a snake cause of too much sunshine. The games were lame but me being me, made the best out of it. Had to sit in bucket of water for a forfeit. Pantat lecak. hahah wrong word. There was this girl that looked like nurul. Man shes so pretty. Dang shes my senior.


AH TUO BAJU AKU DGN MAID AKU GOSOK! tank u pun takda. Tak berguna!

Practice for the Andika competition was dang upsetting. Janji pukul 7.30 start pukul 8.45. I know i have gotten tired of this. Also since i had to drag the baju there. Quirky moments were when we wanted to chase after bus 88 that went near the CC. Where we were was so bloody far away. I had to hug the heavy suitcase and run like i had no future. [we caught the bus] After that experience i dunt want to be store manager anymore. Also rafiq forgot to bring the rebana. Kelakar. "Eh nak hujan ah.. lepas main rebana mesti mendak.." Looks to the ground.. "Eh maner rebana?" hahaha

Tired of lies and buih. BUIH! [Buuueehhh] Dapi foams from his mouth. Nonsense most of the times. Been trying to keep an open mind but dapi only wants what he wants to do. The group isnt a group anymore. Its like a piece of once precious batik not kept properly to become cloth sewn to it patches of unloyal cloth. If only he isnt the one who makes the decisions. A group of people should make decisions as a whole, not one person reigns. I'm not upset we didnt get anything. I'm upset i did not get the satisfaction of actually competing. There was no spirit, no life, no excitement. To think he blames the conditions. Bah. Tak pandai menari salahkan lantai.
Aper macam itik yang sedang berenang di kolam mati kehausan? That would be the case for me too. I'll wait for the day i tell it to his face. He once kutuk a renowned songwriter of being syirik by smoking packs of ciggerates to atain a zone before being able to write lyrics. I guess he never seen a mirror. Hypocrite. Fuck lah he drinks before the comp justifying it as penghayatan. Argh! as you can see when someone trips on my patience, fury shall take over. Panjy seems like a great deal to me now. Even though hati dah patah berderai i wont give up. My mission is to join back the dudes from Tampines again and form the real pure actual asli Tumpat. If i fail i dont even want to hear about Tumpat. These people were from the first competition i participated in, Piala Seni Dikir 2003.


Hilang Sudah Tanginsan dan Tawa
Rinduku Ini Menebal Di Dada
Terkenang Kini Dikau yang Mulia
Seribu kali Sayang kini kau tiada.-Coincides witn the yellow ribbon movement. Bout a convict that lost his mother while he was serving his sentence. sad.

I remembered nas was already on her way to Canada that day too. Hello nas. heheh

I think i want to do up that senikata about Kebakaran hutan and complete it as a challenge.

Have a formal presentation on Thursday and i am waaaaay unprepared.

Skipping rugby too much already.

This post is to make up for the last week and should probably last till the next time i blog. Fare thee well!

If...
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It Rained on a Monday.

Monday is a rugby training day.
It rained beautifully at around 4pm.
Perfect timing for perfect mud.
Dang i missed it.
I decided a nice warm bowl of Dumpling noodles to rolling like an insane bastard on the field. I suck but i dont intend to regret my decision.
There would be other days that rain.

I did a template for the powerpoint presentation project i have about FISH. I like it alot and i'm not sure why. So proud mun. Intending to interview a few fishmongers tomorrow for this assignment. hahah.

Andika's competition in 6 days. Decided it was not time for our Javan entiree yet so we are reserving and building our strenght up first. Ouh i have beem given resposibilities as a store manager. Woohoo. So EXCITING! [being sarcastic btw] Its okay. Got great ideas.
Hate it when i show up for practice and people like Adi karut, Adi juara and Indra with long sour faces [muke masam]. Its pretty tiring for me watching all the shit happening but to see the effects on the elder ones suck. Its getting worse. Sigh. However some people talk alot and all that comes out is basically shit and disrespect. Tengok dimana kau bertapak sebelum kau mengutuk. Jangan fikir awan sejengkal dari kepala kau darjatmu lebih tinggi dari yang lain. Curb that fucking arrogance.

Wondering why mega perdana's not gonna be at Suria's Studio. Want to attend the once in a lifetime event but its on the weekend before my semestral exams. Tickets pretty steep too.

Goodbye F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Could you point me in the direction of love?
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Hello hello hello hello

Had two quizes today. Both chemistry papers. IT SUCKS TO KNOW WHAT YOUR MISTAKES WERE RIGHT AFTER THE QUIZ ITSELF. Jas tried to tell me what i did wrong during the test but i cant copy i dont know why. When i understand then i can copy or make the answer right. Good bye full marks.

I hope i revise well for my Egg and Dairy products test on monday.

I made a to do list which i didnt follow. I wanted so much to complete the lyrics before tomorrow but i dont think i will. AAAAAh

Going back to skool tomorrow i think. Belated teachers day. Mrs Lee deserves an explaination why i went into poly not JC.

Fun Facts about Fan.
My earphones. One side has the sponge while the other doesnt. So i can instantly tell which one to put in my reight and left ears respectively.

I didnt think it would rain today so i decided bring my swimming trunks so i could get wet before rugby training.



"I confessed with all my stupidity!" - weirdo

Something scary happened today. What if you knew someone who is always jovial then you see her in tears..
Im sorry i misinterpretated. I m sorry i cant apologise in person because of the shame i bear.

I've created a song that is totally nonsensical. it goes like this and sung like blues...
If only birds could fly,
The world would be such a beautiful place,
If only birds could fly,
so high up to the sky,
But they do fly,
And this world is wonderful afterall.

My Arabian roots take over. My Javan ones competes.
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