Craving for sleep.

If thats possible. Why was i bestowed upon such a burdenious responsiblity? Im okay with it but im just not really that good with juggling...
And its like one long marathon. Especially for PST.. Pentas Wayang, Show @ Nanyang Girls, Khatulistiwa and now, CCA recruitment. No one week breaks or anything. Now straight after Khatulistiwa, DK ulan... How? If only i werent so invested in this set.
The pics came out real quick for Khatulistiwa comp. 'We lup you'


We've grown so close that it would be a pity to lose even one of us. Kudos to Nira for Clinching Piala Srikandi and Mamat for Karut Harapan..
Dari khabar angin, we were fourth.. cheee...
At least we enjoyed ourselves.

Mr President volunteered to do flyers and posters. And he's pretty much caught up in it.


3hrs to do...
Where did i inherited perfectionism? (Not that they are perfect..)
Quite easy though as the concept was similar to this blog. heheh, play cheat.

I must remember to keep up with school work too. This sem is filled with project based subjects. And it seems my attention is more to MAG. How do i participate actively in both?.. Alah..

Reply to tags...

Fad: Heh updated.. Thanks for your compliments. :D

shidah: hahaha Yeah its irritating. But maybe some people are just shy.. hah

bloghopper_NP: thanks. We live to entertain.. Seems like we'll be going to Ngee Ann poly again for a show sometime.. meet you there.

anonymous: winning isnt everything. We had fun, and thats enough for us.

diana: heheh its always been a policy for Panjy Sry Temasek to enjoy our set and pull the audience in to enjoy with us. Glad to see that happened.. :D

far: Heh i appreciate the advice and knowing someone else is on the same boat as me. Rather than be cranky alone, why not together? hehe

arni: MAAN! Teh gatai satu, sayur tak mau!

shaz: Till today i do not know the exact meaning of PMS. It has always been related to moody behaviour and such.. I wonder why..

fadzillah: thanks for congratulating me. Well i guess i know you...

imran: Thanks

shsuya: No it isnt a nice blog. heh. Its probably just average. And im trying to be humble. hehehe

shaz: Thank yous mes mozell

angelle: Yes i am president. hahaha

kizzie: I know! haha Never felt better... For thy support, you must receive my thanks.. keke


Thanks Thanks...Sincerely Thanks..

Sleeping with a smile tonight.
Pahlawan Putih

Jumpa di Equator...

...aka Khatulistiwa. Hoping for a nice night of sleep before tommorow emerges. Excited? Anxious? Emotions i have gotten acustomed to i dont think they need to be mentioned anymore. Oh and dont laugh when they do the introduction. Haha you'll find out...Also hope fitri gets to play... InsyaAllah.

So i caved in. So i DO enjoy this set. So its tiring. So what?

Sudahlah nasib, suratan diri...
I made a to do list. Something i have never done and never expected to follow. Quite a no. of tasks to complete before monday comes a knock knock knocking on my door (not related to All Change). I hope i can complete them. Maybe after a night of undisturbed rest.

Aiyar. Leceh ah.

Ku harap harapan ini tidak terlalu mengharapkan (kp's). Jangan timbul menimbul lagi. Yang lepas sudah lama. Yang lama sudah lepas. Ambil yang jernih buang yang keruh. Kau tiada hutang apa apa dan ku harap ku tiada hutang apa apa. Ibaratkan saja kau tak kenal aku. Dan aku tak kenal kau. Lepaskanlah genggamanmu supaya dapat dakwat mengalir dan menyatakan titik noktah riwayat ini.
Amin.

I should go to sleep now.

Thanks for those mini-motivational cards. I like them. Gd night

AHhhhhh
Pahlawan Putih

When the dust mounts.

I'm in the cranky(-i-feel-like-punching-someone) mood. I guess it happens when im stressed and more importantly, tired and lethargic. Why am i tired?

Because there has been training everyday. And it sucks when you look forward to an event/battle but you must admit defeat (thru the voice of majority) even before you step into the battlefield. I mean it sucks ah. There should be a line drawn that differenciates performances for shows and performances for competitions. Okay so now we know that we have lost, you want us to enjoy? The set itself does not allow me to do so. And what difference does it make that i voice my opinions out. I guess im thinking too much. But contradictions do confuse me.

Worst of it all is that i get very cranky and easily irritated/annoyed. I guess this is the worst of all times to pick a fight with me. Cause you might just get what your asking for. And please just stop it ah. Just stop your bloody fullertonic redundant nonsense. I know i dont owe you anything and thats that. I'm sorry its your nature to be bitter.

Sometime the fumes goes up in my head that even the first person i wanna meet becomes the last.

Yes we all have our own issues. I dont see why there is a need for anymore aggravation. Every uncalled for action. All that witty or otherwise unwitty sarcasm. I dont know what you want anymore. I dont know how to not get angry anymore.

Shouting is a good alternative to being angry at someone. However, when you shout everyday, it defeats its purpose and in turn becomes a new source of tension/stress.

Now i try to laugh it out with Mr i-m-president jokes. I blame every that happens on my new found presidency. Muahaha. Everybody, especially my mom, it tried of the irfan's the president excuses.

Tiada ruang untuk ketagihan..
Pahlawan Putih

Bunyi rotan...

Memang bunyinya nyaring, kuat. Sama sahaja dengan segelintir manusia yang merangkak, mencari sisa sisa orang lain. Senang sahaja debu dibuat gunung denganya. Selesah sahaja kuman menjadi senyata benua. Kau lupa diri mu. Kau lupa pendirianmu. Kau lupa sifat dan perangaimu sendiri. Yang kau lihat dihadapan milikku. Tiada berkaitan dengan mu atau masa kami berjual beli pantun pusaka. Lupakan lah sahaja apa yang patut dilupakan. Padaku, yang patut adalah kesemuanya.

Kenapa telunjuk selalu ditunding ke arahmu? Kerana bau busuknya darah melekat ditelapakmu. Kerana memang sudah sifatmu untuk membutakan yang masih mentah. Engkaulah pengkhianat bangsa. Bermuka dua. Bagai kaduk naik junjung.

Sudahlah. Tak usah menghantui diriku lagi. Sudah pun jenuh mendengar penyelarasanmu yang tidak bersandar kebenaran. Apa benarkah kebenaran itu benar?
Aku hanya ingin teruskan hidup kerana aku tiada mendustai apa apa pun. Segalanya sudah ku kata dengan benar. Tak percaya? Terserah....
Permainanmu sudah habis dalam riwayatku, tak perlu diungkit ungkit kembali.

Like the mosquito that never dies.

I guess there are some setbacks when you are president of something. People cant stop refering to you as president and sometimes they insist on making a joke out of it. Look, im just an ordinary guy. I guess i'll be an ordinary president too.

Thing is there was training yesterday and i wasnt informed of it. It was announced on friday. But usually they would meet at Techno first. So anyway, aiman and siddiq did invite me to techno, but i thought of it as just a lepak lepak session. So i didnt go. Sekali ada training. And its weird nobody even called me when i wasnt present for the training itself. Alermakz.

Anyway so i spend time by myself at home reflecting on things and trying to squeeze creative juices out...

I must stop this megah-megahan thing
(even though its just for laughter)...
President Pahlawan Putih

Dato-Tan-Sri-Majapahit-Seribandarayasami-Yang-Mulia- Mr-President

"So how's it feel like to be the new president of MAG?"
The first question most people ask when they meet me. Its like the period after o'level results and everybody is asking you the same thing. Though i dont think i have answered any of those question properly. I usually slide off by a humble smile thing.

I dunno. I really dunno. Its still pretty much surreal. And as soon as i was crown Mr Universe President i began to worry. When i reached home, the first thing in mind was to find a 2005 organizer. Man, the next month is gonna be packed with competitions and what nots. Really helps that more and more people offer me their help in case something goes tangled.
Mom wasnt to happy with the idea. hehe. Thats quite expected. But maybe, just maybe theres a slight tinge of happiness.

Now to have fun with this new title...



MUAHAHAHAHAhAhaha... Kan ku perintah dengan kuku besi. Semua akan tunduk ke kezaliman dan kekejaman ku (byk nyer 'ke'). Tiada akan hadir pun segelintir belas kasihan dalam kerajaanku. Muahahahaha

Okay i must admit that was a bit lame. hahaha. But i had fun. haha

Oh its about one. Mamat must be looking for a new phone. I wonder what model... hmm.

I'll be equal and make wise desicions.
Pahlawan Putih

Bagai Bulan Jatuh ke Riba...

Memang sungguh gembira hati, menyorak bak dentuman meriam. Malang beratnya bulan terasa jugak. Hati tak senang menilai kekuatan ribaku. Bercanggah dalam benak fikiran, soalan soalan yang tidak terjawab. Mungkin sudah takdirku menyambungkan takhta itu. Hanya yang Maha Berkuasa dapat mengiringku sepanjang jalan dan aku harap aku tidak akan hilang kewarasan...

I woke up at 9am today. Groggy. Got a few calls. A few sms. Decided to come down for the Malay Arts Group General Elections as PST was badly represented. (Okay maybe aslo because there was food. kekek) Next think i know, my name was on the screen as a candidate running for the elections. I was "oh no"ing. Then the 10 of us who were nominated from each of the 7 sub groups got to give a short introduction and bombarded with a few question. In my speech i said something like "i hope you guys would save your votes for the more eligible candidates in the list".

That didnt work ask i was voted top 5 and i was confirmed a spot in the main committee. I was shivering so badly after that. So nervous that i went to the loo a few times. Had to go through another round of interview which wasnt as smooth flowing as the first one.

Then second round of voting.
Then "Our new president is Irfan!"
Mulut terngangah sekejap..

The feeling still hasnt sunk in yet but i guess when it does i would have to reflect and change where neccessary. This is life changing... for the better i hope.
It really helps that the Vice president is Amin (ex president). I had a lot of questions and he had alot of patience to have answer all of them. Also after that the techno gang was relieved most of the tension i was going through by making some obscene jokes. I roughly know what to do and I want to do it right...

The first presidential speech was lame cos i wasnt prepared at all. By AGM maybe i could come up with a more decent one. Looking forward to working with my main committee.

Thanks for the handshakes and best wishes again...
Really appreciate it that people believed i could do it. Especially people like Mamat and Sobah. Ribuan terima kasih.

still shocked
Pahlawan Putih masih termangu bermahkota manikam.

Ignorance...

Ignorance is like a bad body odour. It follows you when you walk ahead. But when you stop, it goes up your nose like clouds of ammonium gas. So you then realised you have to drop by a pit stop to shower in hope the reek of sweaty armpits fleet. This shower in real life is called learning/studying. Apparently the stench of ignorance has been absolutely nauseating. And now , after two months of holiday, i'm due for a shower (of sweet sweet knowledge).

That was just the long winded way of saying school starts on Tuesday. Im pretty happy i got Colour and Composition as a Cross Disciplinary Subject. Would be going to design school on thursdays. I see Co & Co as a subject i should be able to cope with...
But something made me decide to exclaim, to the lifeless monitor, "Boodddooooohh....."
I have a tutorial on Friday afternoons at 1pm. I wanna ask for a change in class if possible so i dont have to miss classes or friday prayers for that matter...

(*Checking the calendar...)
After vesak day, the next nearest public holiday is National day. Thats three months away.. darn it.

I had a report to do today.. Couldnt go to either Yu ying or PST training..

Oh and i had to lug around Kamus Dewan Besar.. The monk bag bore holes from cradling that hard covered book with a thickness equivilante to bricks from the great wall of china. Actually i havent seen the bricks, but i guess their thick and definately heavy...

Helfi is going to KL tommorow for a Wisata. Rabakz takz ajakz... Haha. I would love to go KL again. Would be funner with peers from the mosque. he will be coming back monday. I know he doesnt usually go overseas.. so i pray for his well being and hope he remembers his very good friend here in tampines street 12 when he is shopping. hehe (nak souvenior cakaplah.. beat around the bush konon. kekek)

Maybe mom is planning to go Tanjong balau tommorow... OH PANTAI PERMAI... Now im dreaming too much... should go take a rest.

Talking about resting...

I have decided to go through the Pak Leh Tapang Voice Rehabilitation Excercise (The PLTVRE). After two weeks straight of wearing out epithelial cells of my throat, i have decided to take on the PLTVRE in hope i regain back the full potential of my voice. The excercise involves these simple steps

1. Drink Lots of Uncold water. Warm is best.

2. Sour Plum, Honey, Tamarind Juice.

3. Refrain from talking unless neccessary (life and death situation).

4. If required, reply to the person you are having a conversation with using sms, msn, scribbles on paper, sign language or your last resort, feign stupidty..

5. Massage neck, around throat, five times daily in circular motion.

6. Gargle with Vinegar and then swallow bit by bit.

hahaha.. so lame..

Hikayat berzaman mula cerita (lagi)...
Pahlawan Putih

I really do.

And you know its true.

But its not meant to be because i really do...

Forgive me
Pahlawan Putih

A new minah pick up line?

After today's show left my body revolting against me, there had to be minahs at the void deck (customers to the mama shop). First batch was at the table, minah staring, then go a bit freaky when she said "Pantat compact..." when i passed by. MasyaAllah, what the fullerton? I was embarressed ah.. i know my butt is relatively large, but i dont require you to announce it!

Next one was at the stairs beside the lifts. In school uniform sitting not like how sopan women should, rudely exclaimed "Eh awak, muka awak macam T/a/u/f/i/k B/a/t/i/s/a/h eh?" (eh, you have a resemblence to T/a/u/f/i/k B/a/t/i/s/a/h)

I was too tired to layankan. My hands were limp, hanging down, like ornamental parts, from my shoulder. After i failed to acknowledge her presence and entered the lift, she continued "Sombong seh awak..." (You're so arrogant...)

Okay i have to ask... Is "eh muka awak macam T/a/u/f/i/k B/a/t/i/s/a/h" a new minah pick up line? So many times already. And i beg your paradon (pardon) if you think this post is an exhibition of my narcissist nature in wanting people to agree i look like a famous person. I'm not sure i even like Mr B/a/t/i/s/a/h and his music..

Other time was while lining up at a buffet spread... This guy tapped my shoulder (as he was behind me) to say the same thing. Worst was when he asked for his friend's opinion...
Mungkin satu sindiran?
dunno.. I dont think i look any near Mr T.B. himself.. It could just be sarcasm.. but then... quite a number think so too?.
Sigh, forget about it....

maybe its a trend like those industrial rubberbands / wristband.

Bilang dorang "Stop it eh"
Pahlawan Putih

Quick one...

...to sum up my spirit-robbing day.

Started out with PBL again. I must say its a waste of time... Till 12, then we (lunch buddies) took a lazy no. 15 bus to Parkway Parade. Discovered a new delicious treat - Sour plum bubble tea. Played pool after lunch at banquet (beef noodles as always). Was real tired by then...

Courtesy of K700i
The pics coincidentally make me look like im attached to jas. hahaha. I love you (feeling romeo)..

Back to muscle cringing day. My perut aching twice as much as yesterday. I want to get used to singing the high notes and expanding my vocal capacity. Prefer training with either Faizal or Jaafar leading the way. Jaafar has a unique voice. You can learn a lot from the seniors. They were the pioneers of pst.

But before training, I had to come to school early at 5.50pm as the SAA closes at 6pm (apparently not). Mamat was at RP. Sobah was just sobah.

Nice part was talking to Catherine about tomorrow's show.
Cat "I thought mamat's supposed to take the key?"
Irfan "He is going to be late and gave me instructions to collect them first"
Cat "Oh your the new head of PST right? Irfan?"
Irfan "Yup irfan...Supposedly new head with syafik"

(Only met her twice and he is a very nice person like how everyone says. Gave a briefing on the show... etc)
Then collect the clothes from SAR with help from Nira members.. (Names i remember, Wati, Ina, Shaz and Dik or smthg like that)

Paling sakit kan hati bila practice start kul 8pm. Janji pukul enam buat apa? Aku nak cekik satu satu macam ayam toggel. Okay so tak ya return arts space key.. yay.. then the nira girls asked for my help to return their key. Lepas dari mulut harimau, berhadapan dengan mulut buaya pulak.
No lah.. Ikhlas aku tolong as they helped me carry the smelly PST costume. Ish..
Itulah dia nama commitment. Yang kini tiada di semadi dalam jiwa ramai insan zaman kini.

I like to help. But dont confuse that to me being a helper.

Aku hanya ingin terus berdiam dalam ketenteraman...


Keroncong untuk Ana for the third time.. It describes my spirit now..

Gtg get a good sleep. Maybe meet the guys who are overnight at the coffeeshop in case they cant arrive in school by 7.30...

Sudahlah nasib, suratan diri
Asyik dipijak, disajikan duri
Pahlawan Putih

Nocturnal phase

My brother has gone through this phase and i am currently going through it i guess. This phase is sparked off by lepak([mara]Thon), defined where you experience the urge to stay up to the morning with company. After two or three days of straight thonism, you might then be trapped in the nocturnal phase. Owls usually are trapped in this phase for their lifetimes. The problem with teenage nocturnalism is that it has an adverse effect to the brain. Usually by sunrise, the victim of this phase would spark nonsense quite equivilante to a drunk mad man(Mad already, drunk summore). Sometimes this leads to uncurable hysteria.

Well i guess that was nonsense as equivilante to a drunk mad man.
Yes, Naughty boy! Balik pukul 10 pagi!
This time it was a nice experience. As if not in singapore. Shikin, Wawa, Amin and Faz asked me go join them for an overnight at East Coast. So i went. Didnt do much i guess which to me is a good thing. Faz provided some good tales of his ghostly experiences (he can see). The sky was beautiful and there was an endless supply of sea breeze. We were nicely cold throughout. And the most suprising thing of all is that each of us were given two free gifts for having stayed up all morning. We didnt want them, but we took the two bags anyway. (Get it yet?)

This post was postponed for two days due to technical faulters in school library. Boodooh nya computer. And also because of Computer hoggers at home.

PST training has been tough...
Its tougher when you are tired from a day of Problem Based Learing Workshop. I though it was a one day thing. Instead its an introduction to a way we are gonna go through selected subjects. Tak suka...
Back to training, I know i am trying my best. I guess its not enough... So fatigueED! Nyanyi pun boleh terkehel especially when ask to sing alone. I can never sing it right when i am asked to sing alone. Get the chills and begin to get nervous/stressed that i do everything...
Konon nak jagi tukang karut. confirm tergugup baru tau.
I suck ah. Thus my nick,
Pahlawan Putih - bersenjata, malang memucat semasa ingin bertarung...

Jangan harap khatulistiwa aku main.
My stomach hurts from all that compressing. My throat sore from all that singing. My palms bruised and swollen from all that clapping. My eyes so heavy from all that energy expanded. Wonder how i am gonna cope when school re-opens.

Onto anger..
"Oh no! my cat's stuck on the tree! Who in the world can i call for help? OH yes! IRFAN!"
"Oh no! I need the gong but its all the way at haig road! Who in the world can i call for help? Oh yes IRFAN!"
IRFAN ni, IRFAN tuuu..
(Doesnt help that im stressed for now) BOOODDDOOOOHH... Tak tau ambik sendiri ke apa. Yelah aku orang yang suka menolong, tapi jangankan salah itu dengan penolong. I could just break this Computer table... Kalau gini, Clark Kent pun boleh naik bingit.

And i hate compliments and stoopeed promises like "eh suara ko sedap. Asli kelantan nya suara.. nanti aku train jadi ______" Nanti ko jadi ini ...nanti itu..nanti..nanti! geram bodoh!


Si penyabar pun layak bermarah sendirian bila yang berlagak sudah keterlaluan. Tak ingin dibuat dek batu landasan lagi.

Btw! its Palawan Beach. Not Pahlawan Beach! Bodoh nya aiman. The 'H' is specifically only for the correct malay term. w/o 'H' is just for the tourism industry
I want to terajang the guy who told me the gelanggang finals would be on
a seperate date.

Replies to tags
fa: hahah. Thanks.. now i know heh. Do you mind if i linked you? your post on halals and harams is superb.

helfi: Masyaallah, ko ada malu tak? haha Bila nak berGurame ni?
Lepas tu baru leh cakap pasal pinjam pinjam ni semua.. Anw, asek aku jer yang pass kat ko lagu. hehe

angel: No, im Injavchiarlay lah.. haha.. and I am proud to be one. Oh and im sorry half of my posts are in malay.. Cant help it lahh hehehe :)

arni: gelanggang was fun? alamak, betul ah . Two karuts i look up to. Both hilarious in their own way. Wasted...

afiq: Not like this site says i host dikir lyrics or the url is Dikirbaratlyrics.com kan? maccau! Wrong place brudderr...

shaz: hehehe, yeah i guess my preference in music is mystically
influenced by my heritage hahaa. I hear its more rewarding to put ur race as malay. Free education or something.

mkhan: imagine if i had to take mother tongueSs. Arab all that eh. I'd die. hehe i usually learn hindi from bollywood movies. hahaha

RaQ: Thanks! first try at words in photoshop..

Har-mo-ni...
*Sokong reban rebah tercium tanah

My mistake... It makes more sense now. heh
Im waiting for the lyrics update at Kelana's website.
Stim dengar part makyong.. bodoh, nazri(right?) suara sedap.
Bila talak naik takhta, melatah sampai kena sawan..?? (not sure)

Everytime i try to take that step, i'm pulled back and see myself retracing. In sympathy for the frangipani...

Sayang bunga gugur sebelum mekar
Pahlawan Putih

I have a confession. Wait...hmm.. confession doesnt sound rite. ]
More like a declaration.
All the lepak session has made me realise i know close to nothing about motorcycles. Maybe its just a non-motor background thing. I dont recall any close relative owning a bike (cept Uncle Zak, but thats way back). Dont even know the difference between licences (Class 2a/2b/etc..) or the different types of bikes out there. To date i know/seen/recognise harleys, phamtoms, waves, scramblers, vespas, sp.. When talking to me about bikes, expect a patronising nod and a clueless irfan.
Yes, eventually i do want to get one. But is there a need for a fuss about motorcycles with some people. In a conversation i would hear the mention of it at least once. Changing a seat becomes equally a big deal as the birth of a baby. Who knows they would have Seat showers (Leather Care products all around!).

I mean its okay but it can get tiring i guess. Bukan nak kutuk, just a reminder to myself never to do that in the near future. Lain orang, lain belang...
Just get a bike so i can go places. Not so it could be a topic i would want to bring up in a conversation so i can subtly brag about my hot new bike. Insyaalllah.



I've confirmed with the authorities (my mom) about my race. Im injavchiarlay. (indian[1/4], javanese[1/4], chinese[1/4], arab[1/8] and who can forget malay[1/8])
So anti-climax when my race is written as Javanese in my IC. I guess so i can play around with this heritage.

Weirdly enough, i borrowed Sobah's MP2002 saringan VCD. Repeating KP's set which has an interesting message they would like to present. Anyway its very worthy of MP. Shariff was really in watak then.

Atap hilang daun nipah tirai tinggalkan jendela
Sokong reban tercium tanah rumah sudah tak bertangga
Sengaja kau ketis jari ayahnda engkau runtuh titah bonda
Bila talak naik tahta, bermaharajalela

From my point of view, (not too sure if its accurate at all) the set is talking about how we live in a multi racial community and we tend to support the other cultures that we tend to forget our own culture/roots.
I agree with it but what about a guy like me? where should i lean to?

Then in the karut part "Cina bersongkok, Melayu lilit sari"
How about the chinese muslims, apa tak leh pakai songkok? hehe.. so its abit funny.
And if each and every race were more active in their own culture then it wont be as colourful. Im sure not everybody active in Dikir is 100% pure malay. Nonetheless, i enjoy the set and the way ia disampaikan. Divorcing one's culture, possible?
heh the beauty of literature.

Missed the gelanggang for today.. I must go for the finals...

"A"
Im really sorry. I guess i still owe you an explaination. Maybe someday.. :)
Your words still etched in mind.

the very vague,
Pahlawan Putih

Mulutku lidahku senjataku

heh.. sorry again.

The last post was a definate misleader. Actually on when it was written. I finished blogging it at 2am. So yeah.

Attention: Helfi. click the pic


Tag Replies.

shaz: Sometimes i think i am the first. The eldest is as inactive as pagers in this century. So i guess the burden lands on me.
(About the shot)Yeah i know, first time messing around with white balance..

hidayah: hahah i dont think i am doing real great in life.. Quite the opposite. And thansk for the compliment. See you around..
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Somebody: why argh? haha

mkhan: Whoo thanks


Supposed to come down for Yu Ying's training... Thing is, MAG is showing the pentas vcd nadi made. And Duh i want to watch...Haiyah..

I can only hope it doesnt end in heart break or a mount of regrets. I really need someone..


Okay.. Gonna log off in a while

Tired + stomach upset
Pahlawan Putih

Underestimation

Behind the thick frame glasses, that worn out garfield tshirt and that pair of faded shorts, you read my posts and criticise in the most ornate fashion. I must apologise for underestimation of your prowess. I never did think you were capable of comprehending my intricate sarcasm. One which i admit to having shown cowardice in mocking you. Again i apologise...
I'll be more cautious the next time

This week has been okay. Only anxious if not eager to get the whole set for Khatu. Its gonna be on the 28 which is after school already is functioning. Darnation! (Darn + Carnation). This semester i want to acheive better academic results whilst i still remain active in the extra stuff...

Been overnighting at coffeeshops and laughing my stomach out. Thank the Almighty we decide to cut short today. i got that thing to do ah..


12/05/05

11/05/05

Got my motor shots for the DG Mosque's magazine article. I think they should suffice. Appreciate Syafik and Mamat's help. Also Yat for teaching me how to mess around with the camera summore.
I dont like this camera because of it lacks some functions. Always wanted an SLR camera. Kakak zsa zsa offered to sell her $1500 olympus one for 700 smackeroonies. Its a great offer but i dont have that kind of money.

Hamba akan tetap mengenang jasa camera Nikon ini. Walaupun kecik screen dier, hamba masih tetap mencintainya kerana telah menolong hamba dapat tempat ketiga untuk Click 2005. hehehehe its really true that your camera doesnt matter. Its in you.

On to my usual pondering...


Why cant a man be Nationless? I want to live on a self suficent island in the heart of a beautifool coral reef. Almost forgot, with a cascading waterfall and a loved one.

Maybe things are best the way they are. Maybe we were just meant to adapt with whatever thats pied in our faces. "Maybe it terrible here and better over there or across the sea". But maybe its just the same. Maybe we were meant to live in the midst of frauds and the pretentious media. Then we learn to appreciate sincerity. Maybe bus fares and movie tickets were meant to lightened our already wringed wallets. This however should not stop us from complaining. We should carry our criticism till the sunsets. or maybe even after that
Things were meant to be how they were meant to be.

My heart feels light. Swepted by the passing wind. Wind that abducts rain clouds which brings palisades to the heart. Ahh.. refreshing aint it?

I must prove them wrong.
I must remain strong
Most think i am but dispensible. Heh. You'd be weeping if you did lose me. No i am not the back bone. But i am the source of calcium thats equally as important. Your foundation is brittle compared to mine. Your misery will remain till your prime. I sit hear in wait. Maybe someday i'll take your space, and then we might reach a higher place.
i have a dream....

and im waiting for that special _______...

Air tenang jangan sangka tiada buaya...
Air surut jangan sangka cetek...

Pahlawan Putih membullsh*ting

Hotak
Pronunciation: Hoetaak

Been trying to tag but it keeps going to a action cancelled page. Apa mungkin anjing menerkam tuannya sendiri.. Boodooohh..

I have to admit in this past month, i m not sure where i stand. Not sure where i belong and which name i go under. Not sure who to follow. Though somethings i will try and make part of my life. And i do have my role models. Like faizal and how he curses. The dragged bodoooh. hahaha. Like the karuts from hulunbalang abnu in MP97/98 and Ulan in MP02 cos of his r karat. Like the awok-awok from Neng who smiles alot (only recently i know his name) and still can execute the ragams and the song with loud voice.

Some would have known i have been hesitating to cross over to the otherside. You know..the grass is greener on the otherside. Well i've been there just that its not for me. I like to take my time and enjoy every second of the moment. Rancak can be good but its not who i want to be. maybe someday when im ready i'll cross over. For now i'll lay low. :) no hard feelings
Di mana ku cari ganti?

If you listen intently, you can hear indrah messing up the first line which is supposed to be "Sudahlah nasib, Suratan Diri" not "Ku tanam padi, suratan diri" hahaha. He was closing his eyes in full penghayatan mode and didnt read the lyrics infront of him. Still, never fails to send chills down me spine. I record this all incase. Incase....

Happy mothers day Mom

I used to be rajin at getting her something either on her birthday or mothers day. But recently i have transformed to a self centred brat. haha no lah. okay maybe a bit. Thats not the point though.
Why do i always end up as the punching bag, the stress release dummy, the unfillial son shit. I have a feeling its my open nature that leads to this marah all six children in one son thing.
"By right, you have to ask for permission to go out..." -- And she says this to me. Only. Then she said something else directing to me. When i say why say it to only me? (in the most un-disrespectful tone [means i was trying to be respectful])
She said it applies to everyone when clearly everyone wasnt there. Btw im an intergrated punching bag cum errand boy. Pergi beli susu , ambik buku kat kereta.... Its tiring and sometimes interuptive.
Not that i dont want to get more pahala... just that asek aku aje...

Kat luar pun apa bezanya? Errand boy cum punching bag at your service. Free of charge summore...

reply to tags
Fad: hahaha. Weirdly i cant access yahoo. And weirdly graffiti.net is still down.

angel & jas: Why dont we just meet on the 24th? Asmah'll sure be there too.

Amin: I apologise for not exhibiting clarity.

shaz: Seekret wan cannot tell. haha thanks ­
shaz: [same as above] hehe just pulling your leg.

faaahhhh: You want me to say it in person? haha Ok go! I'll return by linking you too :).

mkhan: Clearly. i heart the rain so much i bathed twice in my clothes.­­

skazee: From the name you can roughly tell its a Silver coloured fish. haha its just an insect. ­

Tomorrow i hope i'll be busy.


Sleepy man...
Pahlawan Putih

Mandi Hujan.

The past two days have been filled with rain. They have been seeping into my pockets, sandals and what nots. Its been quite some time since i threw caution to the wind and got myself soak in cloud nectar. By the end of friday, i didnt have any dry pants or sandals.

I got in the mood for malay instrumentals. Been eyeing on Jati by Sri Mahligai and so i finally got it on thursday. Its pretty good accept its not really what im in the mood for. The music is great but its the Malay ala Middle Eastern type of music like zapin. I was expecting the more Malay ala nusantara type. Favourite track would be no. 5. Im thinking whether i should have bought the other album or maybe even Dzul Rabull Jalil's...
Suprise x2 some of the songs sound very famillar. Almost as if heard often during the period of 22-29 april.. hmm.. could just be a conincidence. haha

I went down to training yesterday. Just check and see how things are going. Been a while since i heard Indrah singing. So thats another reason. If i could saturate him into a minijuke box i will. I'll play mengapa tak seindah dulu every 3min 30sec to every day.
The boycott was temporarily lifted so you would say. I think i'll be watching Dk ulan not playing. They came up with a stupid set i might say. I'll blame it on one.

Awake at this hour as i have a previous engagement. Going to yuying again! Aku pon tak tau aku happy ke tak. haha. My eyelids are as heavy as can be.

I would like to apologise again to people who felt a jab when they read my previous post... I should have been clearer who i was refering to.

"Maafkan hamba, hamba cuma menjalankan tugas nak menyindir"
Pahlawan Putih

Cinderell

Every now and then, in response to a threat, my fairygod mother changes me to cinderell. Its similar to the equinox.
"You better clean up that pigsty, especially under your bed or I'll do it for you. Bongkar segalanya muahahahahaha" mom
Okay the evil laugh part added ah.. So i got the mood last evening. Clean clean clean. Suddenly i saw this white apparition move under my bed. It slithered like a snake. Then i knew it was a silverfish.
[Flashback..] The first time i sighted a silverfish under my bed i thought it was just a piece of paper moving cos the fan is too strong.
[Flashnow...] Yesterday was the grosses of all my encounters with those weird moving creature. Thats cos i saw 4. One at a time they went out thinking it was save. I squished most with real solid objects but only one was lucky to have not got it's juices all over the parquet floor.
Viewer's discretion advise. Dont look if your eating something. Click this-


Everythings fine now.... I think i have terminated the family of silverfish's stay. Cleaned up all the juices and its pretty much spotless in my room. But occasionally i do get annoying anoyances - the feeling of something crawling up my feet. Mungkinkah roh si silverfish tersebut?
Wallahu a'lam. hahaha

Cinderell also decided to reload Home econs lessons but making a Scratch Protection Device for his mobile phone. handphone pouch dah.. A bit senget tapi okay go.


On other things...
Never eat before going out. Especially if its 1 in morning and your thinking of exploring the neighbourhood.
I still havent gone out with my bike yet. As for companionship, cik helfi kita dah pun takda basikal... tah apo sudo jadiw. Bodoh

I would like to repeat myself for the second time. I hope people have the courtesy to respect my wishes as not to mention what has been written in this blog. Please you should understand if your even have an ounce of maturity.. Or is maturity sold seperately? keke
Datang tak diundang, pergi jangan ditendang
Jangan sampai aku nak mengamok!!

Reply to tags

mkhan: Dey! labour day was yesterday lah...n yes, msn is gettin more boring these days. ppl are either away or offline. hmph

Alah dey, i getting older. And am not a calender person hahaha. Hmph to those people too.

fareha: hey!!i went 2 pentas n i wuz shocked 2 c u!!semangat n nice!!

Harlo. Long time no hear, i tot you mati. hahah lame. Glad to see you enjoyed it..Tc

helfi: kemuning sapa arh? hehehe

Dah terang lagi nak bersuluh. Sebelom aku terajang kau dengan kaki sekepuur..

sarah: irfan who ever got tt idea in ur head tt i'm angry with you...haha...

You ah.. your the angry witch doctor type what hahahahah

Fad: i loooooooooove ur new template!! and the song! now that i now how to dance zapin i keep zapining around when i enter ur blog. hahaha.

I looooove your compliment. hehe.. Must teach me so i can zapin too.. btw you learn the male version too?

angel: i was about to say hi to you and you went offline. irfan! what is the meaning of this!!

um hahah im not sure what it means either.. hahahaha

arni: wei mana ko dapat tu gambar keris... lawa ler

Yahoo image search usually does the trick. Landed on some Ethnographic weapons thing.. hahaha thanks.

Its good to see 3 ex classmates tagging. Harlo!

Graffiti.net having some problems i think... The pics wont come up

Going out to enjoy the rain.
Pahlawan Putih

Sang pujangga mula gurindam
Dakwat berlagu, hati berima
Mari lestarikan adat dan resam
Tulangkan panji, masyhurkan bangsa

Mereka merisik adat budaya kita
Mereka injak martabat bangsa
Diracuni minda anak-anak kita
Gugur jati diri, Siapakah kita?

Apa mahu maruah bangsa digadai
Hanya untuk mencapai kejayaan
Apa yang dikejar tiada tercapai
Apa yang dikendong keciciran...

-Kemuning.

Nang boti nang pui boti pui... Amacam dia boleh tulis ni semua? I struggle just to come out with one rangkap. Its quite difficult to not be influenced by PGL the movie. The bahasa is superb and it sucks when writers terikut ikut.

Tema Dk ulan : Hilang Gelap, Terang Datang.
Themes this days are very similar if not the same. Just in a different form. I'm trying to think of something out of the box. But then again would it be easy to understand by the masses?

I must stop going home late at night or even worst 6-7am in the morning. Or worser than worst (if theres such a thing) not having the key to the house and having to disturb poor ol' mother by calling the house. haha.. I did that 3am in the morning last night.

Yesterday while the family was packing for a trip to Tanjong Balau, Desaru again, i was getting suited up for a day of boredom. Luckily mamat was at a shortage of manpower for a kompang group.
FYI: aku tak tau main kompang. But Bedalsajelah is fine with me. Went to S/r/i W/a/r/i/s/a/n at bencoolen street? with bah, yan, yat and bu (last syllables of names). Gedebak...gedebuk...Tukar penampilan macam pahlawan mana tah (tanjak and all), practice sikijap then we were off. 9 people in a 7 seater family car. Dont forget two huge drums, one resting on two laps. Then we reached the destination with our cockroach kissed capals (The drawer had like 5-10 lipas just crawling like we werent there). The wedding was grand. Fort canning. Tent with crystal chandeliers. A red carpet smothered with glitter. But the thing is we played for 5 mins max.

Upah tu ada lah.. haha.
Paid my mom back for my handphone. I passed her the money 3am in the morning. I wonder what she was thinking of when she gave me the "hmmm-so-fishy" look. hahaha

I really need a source of income no matter how small. Brapa banyak aku hutang mak aku. I think its best i go learn how to kompang properly. maybe then i can part time also. Slowly but sure pay of my hutangs. I hutang sarah $2. But she's probably still mad at me.

More on pentas. MAN yesterday none of us could stop rindu-ing it.. Padahal padahal. Only 2 days ago? but seriously, if every show was like that one...i wouldnt mind be jailed for having too much fun. The audience was the bomb by the way (repeating myself). All the spontaneous antics. All that tears from laughing so hard. Sometimes the last minute isnt as bad.
AL KAISAH!

Msn messenger's boring these days. no one to chat with. People say hi. then they go offline. Never was a fan anyways. Like i said a proper conversation is all i want.
You there "A"? talk to me. I'll be waiting.

Its labour day today and i have nothing planned.
hm.. i'll make a plan right now. hmm
Okay i'll go take my bike out. Destination? Around tampines? Nah.. to boring.. mana lagi eh?...
AH Guan Soon! The steep slopes. And not forgeting the steep slopes. I miss that place. Catch butterfly on the way back from school. The pathway between Changkat pri and the condo which had toads that freaked the panties out of me. The bicycle rides in the late afternoon.
Ah its settled then. I'll also go check to see if someones occupying the house we rented before. its settled then.

Gonna have fun at some steep slopes.

Woohoo !!
Pahlawan Perisaikan Padah