Ia suatu tanda...

When you know something is too much. When its what you worry about. When you don’t blame anyone if it screws up.
I had no expectations. I believed you. I had no regrets.

“Calon-calon untuk awok awok terbaik….........Tumpat….”
My godemeress…. I was all what the fulltertonicness is happening. Yes although it was just pencalonan but it was like a pleasant surprise. I stared at Ardi. He stared back. Pukymac. (Creating modified curses) So bloody unexpected. Im being unnecessarily vulgar. But it was really a wtf/wth moment. We all are so gonna get nightmares – that particular moment repeating itself like a mobius strip. We thought our Juara would be our golden ticket, but that didn’t happened and it was so fishyfied that we got nominated.



Alhamdulillah.

Anyway im upset with Indrah about him being upset by not being in the picture and sending us msgs like "Sorry aku let you guys down again". He was really under pressure lah. The song, the lengoks, the guestbook entries at Dikirbarat.com(kalau lah dia tak baca tu semua), the girlfriend, the future mother-in-law in the audience..... hahah

Ku rasa ia satu petanda. Ku rasa ia sudah ditakdirkan.

Special shout outs:
Panjy: Mamat was superb. A little more time and you’d be one of the best. Ayie was marvelous. If only he played during saringan.
Part of audience were being inconsiderate when Ayie was singing. I wonder how old they were. Korang really deserved 2nd place.

Andika: My Quarter Master was bloody entertaining. Your Karut deserves a mention. And lyrics, genius. Amacam tidak?

Last but not least: Ulan. Looking forward to Dkulan 2006.

Sometimes when you’re too perfect, its not perfectly entertaining anymore. So your win is just an empty one. Bleah.
Aku ye-ye je, macam lah orang baca blog aku.

Thanks kepada semua yang jerit “Baik President” Buat malu jer.

Well, now for Citra. “Dulu-dulu….”

I need to confirm its relevance.
Pahlawan Putih

We are the shadows we cast.

And we cant cast them aside.

kekek =D

Let me apologise to those who have hoped this blog was updated more frequently especially in the past week. Thanks for the 90-60 visits a day. Honoured to be getting that kind of response although i dont update.
Yes i have been busy. Yes i know, whats new. Does not help that im abit scatterbrain. I keep forgeting this and that. Im still trying to cope.



My bill this month was $70++!! Mak ai. Pengsanious. Thus i quickly transformed to the whiny brat i am, and forced my mom to tag with me to singtel to go change my plan. I got the Civil Servant i-one plus thanks to mom. So fun. You can start calling my non-stop after Tuesday.

From DikirBarat.com

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Wednesday 06/22/2005 9:00:42pm
Nama: roxy gerl
Kumpulan Dikir : penonton DK Spura aje

Komen Anda: Kepada kumpulan2 yg akan bertanding pada Ahad ini di DikirUlan , All The Best & Good Luck !!!!!!

Kpd " TUMPAT "....Congrats on entering the finals... Special Good Luck to you guys........Tok Juara of TUMPAT , good vocals ,keep up the good job........
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Tuesday 06/21/2005 4:30:56am
Nama: jimi asmara
Kumpulan Dikir : hanya peminat

Komen Anda: kepada finalist dkulan..saya mengucapkan tahniah..terutama sekali kepada kumpulan tumpat..berasa gembira g2 bila dorg masok final.. concept mcm da laen g2. tak mcm dulu.. keep it up guys..jgn sekali sekale hidong tinggi.. hope korg motivate wif each other.. Insyallah, korg will make it.. hope to see the best from Tumpat on final nnti..tats oso goes to all the finalist dkulan..

jimi asmara
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To all who have wished me all the best for DkuLan tommorow, i must thank thee. I'll try my best to put up a good fight. Make your ten dollars sacrifice, worth every cent. So funny how Indrah asked me for a favour just now after practice. "Tolong sembahyang hajat untuk aku..."

There is a silver lining



I better go shut my eyes or i wont be able to wake up.
Though i have more to blog about. i guess that can wait.

Dulu boleh...
Pahlawan Putih

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (50%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being assertive and social and being withdrawn and solitary. Altruism (66%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (37%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, random, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Emotional Stability (39%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Inquisitiveness (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative.

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Feeling extremely lonely. As if i have nothing but my reflection to converse with.

Maybe its time for a fresh new start.

Menanti Mercup Mekar,
Pahlawan Putih

"Be confident..."

It means a lot. Thank you.

If I decide to forgo with another upcoming event, im not sure my sanity will still be with me. Nevertheless I will try my best.

To hear that we are peaking is quite a surprise. I don't think there was ever much of a difference from the previous comp. And the squad gets smaller and smaller by each passing "loss". I wonder what's happening. I wonder why we are starting to get noticed. I still wonder why the guys didn't get into semis for MP. I wonder...

Yesterday was fun. Prior to the completion of the lyrics, I headed to school for the Nadi+Tperdayu+Sohib orientation. Jas was there and she was a good sport. And lups u for getting for me my pens. It ended in floury/doughy madness.
Then I met Peng at the mrt station to pass him the 6 copies of you know what for you know what. We had an Outdoor training at Marina Bay but I was too pancet to even walk anymore. So I went home and slept.
Man it was nice. Slept like a baby.
Afterwards I bathed and made my way to Kallang Theater for Gentarasa. Tickets complimentary of Amin. :D But i still intend to pay him back, somehow. It was okay. Abit mainstreamish. Predictable. But lighting and live music was really good.
Then headed home. Then did a small section of FI report then i slept. (so then-y)
Then the End for 18th of july.

Work is easier to complete when your mom decides to spend the weekend in KL. I now have much access to the comp and my mom's gahment property laptop. You know, i wish i was in KL but im not complaining im in Sg cos of all the deadlines i have to meet. And its stupid that my elder brother wanted to go but he was too lazy to even go and pack his stuff. I wouldnt want to miss out on a chance to go KL, with mother summore. With mother it comes close to an all expenses paid trip. Wait, it actually is... hahahah kurang ajar.

Today i am attending a wedding. An alumni is getting married. Then its back home to complete my FI report. And study for some test.

Talk about weddings, Kakak leen is getting married real soon. Finally a close relative, who we are close to, 's wedding. Looking forward to the chaos and all. And the concept for the unorthodox wedding excites me.

thats all for now.
Pahlawan Putih

Madness

When school drives you mad, you just gotta embrace it. Go madder.


Mad

Madder

Maddest

Pull your friends in too.

This week has been ba-na-na-ana-analy hectically crazy. Talk about cliche. But seriously, i cant take it. And one after another, selfish individuals (aka Bitch/bastard) irritate you like a thousand ulat bulus on your skin. There was Mr 10th-century-type/2-sizes-to-big-shirt-wearing-gundu.

AKA Mr Beng. I've always hated 40-50yr male teachers probably in mid-life crisis who seem to always side girls or in other words be miangly unfair. (I had Mr Loh (ba loh bah... yeah) during primary sch and Mr kassim during sec). I only have an attitude when i am force to do redundant things while have a major poundalicious headache. I wonder whats in that partially bald head of yours. The girls dont have to change, they can sit and be spectators. "GO run a round" Okay i did. "Go run another round" did that too. "Dont just sit there and be lazy, go do some exercise"...
as if running back and forth from Asc to SAA, dikir barating since who noes when without breaks, cycling to school, climbing 10 flight of stairs cos the stupid lift was stuck at the 10th floor isnt already enough excercise. The irony of being called a Care Person. Why waste my time?

Meetings, meetings, meetings.
im getting used to them and how to turn unproductivity the other way round. It's and advantage to have a loud, lantang voice. heh

Now more and more people call me at the wrong times. Esp those Saudara types that want to Bekerjasama with MAG. Its time i get a free incoming line...

Lyrics... not going so well.. I really cant concentrate cos of the other deadlines.. I think i need help. But kemuning has left the force already. so only myself to depend on.

Stupid Phua Chu Kang... What were they thinking. I guess after agreeing to the Casino / IRs thinking is something sinjapore does not do any more. Anyway.. i dont watch that much tv anymore.. only pgl. heh.
Definately still attached to Under One Roof.

About tags, sorry i dont reply to them much.. i try to. :D

Just crossed my mind. Co&Co another idiot. I guess now its broaden to middle age bitter ol men and women.

here's a continuation of the previous post.

Bulu roma (Hair at the back of ur neck)
I know a few people who deserve standing ovation from my bulu roma. I'll go according to familliarity.

Wan Zali @ STT (though he forgot his lyrics, the arab inspired song was waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy too much(in a good way))

Harapan's Juara. Nice unique voice too. Maybe boring after heard a few times, nonetheless the chills dont stop flowing..

Ayie @ PST/Panjy. The uniqueness, the control, the penghayatan. Especially the uniqueness. Way too much(still in a good way).

Last but not least, Indrah @ Tumpat @ DKulan. It was just heavenly. He was the goleden ticket. If only i could hug him tight and it wouldnt be awkwardly unacceptable in society, i would. He suprised most of us. and i always feel like bashing him in healthy envy.. hahaha

to me, what makes it or break it is penghayatan. If you dont have it, ur just a bunch of fancy lengoks.

oh.. never gave a sypnosis on this template. The ring in the picture is a gift from Cik tipah. Liked it alot and so it happens to not fit abang farzeel. So cik tipah gave it to me. It is the closest an inanimate object has come to represent me. Gila...

Ku menyerah kalah, sebelum bertapak langkah....
Pahlawan Putih

Wednesday 06/08/2005 0:13:00am
Nama: SiTi AmiNah
Kumpulan Dikir : dah retire...
Location: Singapura
Komen Anda: Kepada kumpulan2 yang berjaya ke peringkat finals DikirUlan'05 , saya ucapkan " SYABAS " ... Buatlah yang terbaik untuk finals ... terutama sekali kepada kumpulan , " Tumpat " ...All the best.. Tok Juara , fight for Juara terbaik...Bring out all you've got....

Iklas........
Penonton & Peminat DK S'pura

Im touched.. Ada jugak peminat....

Tonight, i will attempt to finish a part of the big responsibility that was given to me. Yes i know that was bad english but i really cant blog much.. i got that thing remember.. how..

Neglecting this blog (boohoo)
Pahlawan Putih

Battling my darkside


heh. an old pic.

The Arts induction camp was okay. I had fun. Made friends. But it was conducted at the worst possible time. Two test tomorrow. and i just woke up from the aftercamp nap.

Gonna eat my changi mee goreng while compling my own set of notes. Turn on my workaholic mode with the help of Nelly furtado. Only be concerned with catering technology and food ingredients.

Selamatz
Pahlawan Putih

In Stay-out-of-my-face mood

Early in the morning, i wake up hoping this day would flow through smoothly like water to a river. Little did i know rocks and boulders became apart of that path.

Early in the morning, i try to bring my notes to school but apparently i'd have to play hide and seek first. Thats cos my lovely mother decided to go against her son's will and clean up her room (according to her its her house so its her room). What was clean to her was messy for her child. My notes were everywhere! cept they were all part of a neat stack, gingerly hugged by recycled copy paper boxes resting on their sides. I do not know how to address this matter to dear mother and be unkurang ajar at the same time.

Early in the morning, i want to bathe after all that hallabaloo but the toilet is already occupied.

How i wish the holiday would end or that my family went for a holiday. To send emails is like to book a date with an MP or something. Actually them starting school again would be a joyous event by itself already.

How i wish reports didnt have to be typed (with 1.5 line spacing and blah blah blah) or that i had a type writer cos apparently a, and i repeat, A computer does not suffice for a large family of 8. And the thing is, even if i know my report is more important than dowloading animated pictures of penguins and what nots i still let them be cos they deserve to play (my dad included). But it sucks lah.

If i had an axe, my bed would be resting on 8 sides and splinters would fill the room like snow to a snowman. What nonsense am i talking.

I hate the time table for fridays. No even allowed to go for prayers.
I think i'll take a MC after my presentation.

Im not used to a large workload. Reports, projects, lyrics, president stuff, other shit. all i do is worry, worry, worry , woory, woryy. wory. wwerry werry/....................s'nhsg'nsdfnf

ARGH
Pahlawan Putih

AA22



Busy as a bee
Pahlawan Putih

Second to a blog?

It has come to my attention that a growing number of people visit this site. Especially people i have never met and is/are intending to meet me. And sooner or later, this shawdy termite infested blog becomes a topic of conversation.
Apa aku buat dan tak buat jadi petanda sifatku. Berat sebelah lah. hehe



Things on my mind.
1) Projects and assignments.
2) Kunci (Tema untuk Dkulan Finals)
3) DkuLan finals
4) Arts Induction Camp
5) How the heck we got into the finals (only 18 pple summore)
6) How the heck are we supposed to act.
7) How the heck am i gonna write about something still nonexistent in my mind..

DkuLan finals: 26th Jun 2005.
Sembawang cc.
Tickets $10 (get them from me.)

I hate it when my school work is my first priority but its summed up as a whole. Dikir is definately a distration for me now.

Focus... Concentrate....
Pahlawan Putih

Hilang gelap, timbul terang di hujung terowong.

1. TUMPAT

2. ANDIKA

3. RAMBONG

4. SRI KELEWEK

5. BALQIS

6. SI ANAK SENI

7. PANJY

8. HARAPAN

9. RAJAWALI

10. NENG NYNO

11. ENTITY SOSOK

We went into the finals though we were expecting certain death. heh. I was more than elated to know we were top 8. But it would be better if they showed our ranking so we know how much we need to improve and in what areas.
Indrah was the bomb. Bulu roma betol-betol ternaik when he did a slow escalation to the higest note of the chorus. Too bad we couldnt record the whole thing. it was a serious waste..
But when juara's good, the karut's standard drops. Adi started yengki in a pitch quite high. Love the whole set. Glad i had a chance to be part of it.

Now to think about the final...

Kunci
Pahlawan Putih

It was bound to happen.

Before i step into the realm of tedious explaination, i want to show this to you guys. I was frying an egg yesterday and it spreaded out to only one side of the pan. I call it the yin yang egg. Even Mr-if-he-can-cook-than-so-can-you saw this, he would smash his woks and retire in china.



And life is about balance. You lose some, you gain some. You are congratulated, you are mocked. Its God's way of reminding you where you are.

Congratulations to Kenca for clinching 3rd placing in Khatulistiwa.
I dont have and issue with that.

"nak sujud kat hai sing keper?"
Sounds like a normal jest in dikir. Especially if my suspicion is right (to who said that). Alah bisa tegal biasa kan?. It was more of a remark that an issue. Just a remark said out loud to pull your leg. A remark for which you reply with a chuckle and just forget about it because its not even worth two cents. This is if you know your better than to be affected by such a remark.

To generalise the blame and use Panjy Sry Temasek's name unpardonably is like salt to the wound. I understand that that remark might have also created a wound but lets be open minded and let bygones be bygones. The remark toward PST was really uncalled for as the one who said it angered a few people too.. I dont hate anyone, but if you choose to be like that, then nothing can be done. I would like to apologise again to the Kenca family if any of us had angered you. Apologising as a pst member, mag president and a muslim brother.
We look forward to share close ties with you guys.
InsyaAllah.


TODAY'S DK ULAN!!!

Here's my badly, 2nd try to rhyme, last minute set...
Bertemakan Hilang Gelap, Timbul terang.

Juara

Di dalam riuh diuja memadat
Daun menadah kasih sang perkasa
Sayap ogah, kelopak tersemat
Bergenang sangsi yang menyutradara

Melayap leluasa, haruman mewangi
Si Kumbang menyusul, ketemu ngajangan
Manis Kemboja penawan hati
Nira terpancar memadulah insan

Perkasa membenam patang muncul pula
Timbul menyata terkurung di minda
Manakah pergi? Berhajat penama?
Mula gustian diasuh wasangka


Yengki

Bersimpul mati janji setia
Madu Kemboja tali ikatnya
Lalu madu memahit juga
Yang biasa menjadi bisa

Sayap dibentang mencari bala
Selubung malam cinta memalap
Merah saga si Bunga Raya
Penawan hati wasilah gelap

Kelantan

Jauh dari pandang Kemboja
Nafsu memuncak, menderhaka
Hilang akal menyelam puspa
Lupa kewajipan cinta

Melangkah curang semata
Bertapak sulitan mesra
Kumbang dalam huru hara
Dah jatuh ditimpa tangga


Patani

Gelap mengaburi sinar cahaya...

Kisah si Kumbang dan Kemboja
Berjalinan kasih penuh kendana
Malangnya bila mendung melimpah
Sifat sabar tidak berupa
Pindah kasih ke Bunga Raya, si watak ketiga
Debunga Raya terlekat di kakinya
Gejala dia curang dan berdosa!

Tidak lama, si Raya layu berhama
Kumbang kesal, terkecewa
Sedar telah menduakan cintanya, si Kemboja
Maka teranglah hati bila gelap tiada
Madu kemboja jua penawar lara...

Matang

Lesap sudah kegelapan, peluang ke tangan terang
Berputik menyuluh jalan agar cinta tidak kehampaan

Jadikan satu tauladan kesedaran silap Kumbang
Hindar dari keculasan, Undangan kesulitan ke gelapan

Waktu hilang yang ketiga mahligai sembuh berlinang
Tamat pengarahan sangsi, timbul terang germerlap dalam insan


Penutup

Ala ewa Ewa bulan
Ewa bulan teraju tiga

Diberi cerlang bunga pasti bermekaran
Begitu juga dengan seni budaya


Karya pena: Pahlawan Putih
Lagu ciptaan asli Tumpat 02.

Oh and yesterday was so lepak cos we were all bored and so Indrah initiated the fun by tying me up into a pochong. A blue one mind you.. hehe.

Im gonna miss this days... tak lama lagi tikar digulung.

Dah naik gila..
Pahlawan Putih

Number 2.

Its significance has shine through lately. For projects, more often, my group the groups i am in (for most of my subjects), has been assigned group no. 2. And just yesterday we won 2nd for the best decorated booth. (We lost to production crew and their lame t-shirt helicopter. Chee..)

On to other things. With double Chee..

"so PST didnt get a thing.
oh, Mamat won Karut Harapan.
so proud of you!!

and, to have issues with some lil kids who got 3rd,
doesnt justify the fact that you guys are mature adults.
come on. like i said before, people have been giving you face just because of the name.

Panjy Sry Temasek.

make sure you are worthy enough to use that name before complaining that my kids beat you guys because...?
shall not elaborate further.

but thank you Mamat, for bring the group together. hell of a good job.
if some of you are still not happy with the results, as to why you guys lost to a bunch of kids, please, come to me"

I know i was told to ignore it but hey, i think we deserve a little more respect. And its not just because im president. Its because im a PST members. For the record, this is not to spark and wars (online or otherwise).
Firstly, we had no expectations whatsoever and we didnt seek a placing in the top three. I dont think any of us had issues with Hai Sing taking third placing and outshining us. The fact was that they had a better lyricist, song and were well prepared. Our aim was just to have fun and i guess we did.

Maybe that was after i accepted the fact that being and awok awok hujung was not so bad. But i never want to be one again. heh... funny to have recalled that muka masam i made. Sorry for being difficult again. Bukan niat sebenar ku.
Now i miss pentas and khatulistiwa.

Stress building up walls in life.

Yesterday's caramel frappacino and company was nice. Finnally resolved.

DK Ulan this sun. Yoohoo.. Just want to excute the set i am invested in.. Only 11 groups competing for 8 spots in Finals... hmm. no expectations. All the best for me.

No hard feelings.
Pahlawan Putih

MAG

Arts fest has been quite hectic. Bringing stuff up and down to the booth. Spontaneously lead performances. Lets start off with the notice board. Kudos to Lina and Indah for the MAGnificent MAG notice board.

Lawa, tapi poster kat tengah tu lagi lawa.. hehehe


The booth and its attendies from SNT


PST in action.


Dua karuts bermengarut dengan sekarut-karutnya. Muka stop it eh...heh


I even tried joget. haha yeah.. funny right? Lebih kaku dari papan kayu.


We had fun till someone passed away. Notice mamat's sad mournful expression? wahaha

Thanks again Farhaanah for taking the pics for PST and the Joget thing.

Its always fun looking back.

I have to go and sleep now. On hellofeaday coming up tommorow.



mkhan: Alah.. You saw me, i didnt see you. I dont really have eagle like eyes and i think thats the problem. Boleh pinjam urs? hahaha

bLaCkr0sE: Terimalah kasih hai saudari

KelKatu: ­ hehe. Yup original. That compliment made my night. haha

bloghopper_NP: Akan Datang.

Note to self: Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone. Do not harbor ill feelings towards anyone.....

Biar ia menakung sampai tiada ruang lagi
Pahlawan Putih