Sunday, January 29, 2006

: )

the expression is recognised but the emotion is but a mystery. a void waiting to be drowned with assumptions (a.k.a: mother of all cock-ups.)

Hahaha, now my laugh emanates more bitterness than usual, because at one point of today, i smile, blacking out from the world, because you 'replied'. Ahak.. what has this made me, im sorry.
I shouldnt have
I shouldnt be
I am not worthy.

i was expecting this but i guess my hopeless romanticism surpassed the limits of my expectations, in relation to this matter. Fantasy, a relatively short distraction. Butterflies, their wings no longer rub against the lining of my stomach, have lifespans of only 20-40 days, affirming the fact that fantasy is always short lived.




And i wonder why its so hard for people to get used to me not smiling.
im just not a happy person. im a very tired person.

Smile for me. in person.
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