Ampun Tuan Ku.

Here's my new layout. Abit too blue i think. But blue is the colour of thirst, or to be without something eg blood. Dunia yang luas, Aku seorang. that level of being without something or someone. In short the template is inspired by Puteri Gunung Ledang the movie, the message personal part of me.

Terbang bebas di udara,
Darah juga kehendaknya,
Sifatnya,
Tujuh Dulang banyaknya...

Jawapanya: Tujuh Dulang Hati Nyamuk

Wooh...

Pengorbanan demi cinta adalah indah,
Dan pengororbanan demi negara sungguh mulia,
Tapi apakah artinya, pengorbanan dengan tangan berlumur darah manusia tidak berdosa?
If a girl recited this to me, i would be glad to sweep her off her feet.

Seeing that a malay movie could be of a really high standard, and Taufik wining the Sg idol title it just makes sense to me that being disabled doesnt mean being unabled. Me disabled? Yes. I dont not speak mandrin. It is a disability i face being a malay[well half malay actually]. Depressing it is to look throught the classifieds and see the same line "Must be bilingual in english and chinese". Chinese being the majority in Singapore also explicitly means they are first class in our society. I dont abhor or hate chinese, but being a minority sucks. It really sucks.
Watching PGL made me realise even more that i dont even want to live here in Sg. Other than being a minority, singapore is not a condusive environment at all. If i have children, Meaning of life becomes more elusive to search within themselves if i raise them in Sg. I'd rather live on the mountains. Also i have no true dreams to be a Nutritionist, my dream is far more simpler. Sigh... theres no peace here. I dont want to be rushed to choose a career but i had to already. Heres a big sigh.
SIGGGH..

Jika patah sayap rajawali,
Bertongkat jua kanda kemari..

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